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[pothead_parent]: welcome to pahead parents where we're not
only packing lunches but packing bulls just a

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[pothead_parent]: mom and dad maybe

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: some of their cannabis loving friends sharing
the ups and downs of parenting while being

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[pothead_parent]: so much fucking more thanks

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[deny_caballero]: m

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[pothead_parent]: to mary jane not sure what all
that means neither do we so let's grab

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[pothead_parent]: your favorite piece and let's see what
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[deny_caballero]: m

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[pothead_parent]: so we have our brand new friend
brand new about sixty

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[deny_caballero]: oh

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[pothead_parent]: ninety days old kebelaropronouncing that for correctly

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[deny_caballero]: yeah it's a but everybody just

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[pothead_parent]: i

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[deny_caballero]: cab

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[pothead_parent]: deny in glow in him is like

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: whatever you want to be called what

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[deny_caballero]: yeah you know it's in the military
it's like whatever dude

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[pothead_parent]: it

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[deny_caballero]: you

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[pothead_parent]: does

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[deny_caballero]: find what it can become a nickname
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[pothead_parent]: it was like hey fucksthat's his podcast
is called security halt and this is we

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[pothead_parent]: met them at the mid conference which
is a military influencers conference and we literally

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[pothead_parent]: sat right across from each other and
sucked off the whole time which is great

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: we were meant to be we created

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: very good relationship so we wanted to
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[deny_caballero]: you're

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[pothead_parent]: talk

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[deny_caballero]: good

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[pothead_parent]: about their podcast what they do who
they are how they're helping the veteran community

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[pothead_parent]: and really how mental health between men
and all veterans whether they're women or men

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[pothead_parent]: needs to be talked about like this
is a serious fucking problem used to be

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[pothead_parent]: twenty two a day now it's forty
four a day and no one really seems

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[pothead_parent]: to get a shoe so m but
i'll stop talking and let you just kind

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[pothead_parent]: of introduce yourself like who you guys
are what you're doing go from there

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[deny_caballero]: yeah first off thank you for having
me on your show guys i'm denny caber

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[deny_caballero]: from security on a podcast and i
think we're the first of our kind were

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[deny_caballero]: a met health podcast but we lure
you in with like the eighty percent jokes

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[deny_caballero]: to military jokes and then we slide
that mental health piece in there because it's

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[deny_caballero]: hard to talk about mental health not
only as men but as service this is

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[deny_caballero]: a wholesome men and women especially we
serve together it's hard to get us to

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[deny_caballero]: open up and admit that like hey
there's something wrong up here we tend to

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[deny_caballero]: think that it's just our fight is
just us internally dealing with all this conflict

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[deny_caballero]: but the reality is behind us there's
a wife there are kids care givers

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[pothead_parent]: oh

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[deny_caballero]: and we don't really see it when
we're n the middle of it but everything

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[deny_caballero]: that we have and we're struggling with
is affecting our family

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[pothead_parent]: hm

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[deny_caballero]: so after i went through my final
downward spiral and had to go in impatient

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[deny_caballero]: treatment and then into intensive out patient
treatment i realized now i was struggling to

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[deny_caballero]: find somebody that could pull me in
that was wearing the same uniform wearing the

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[deny_caballero]: same green bare and say hey brother
you're not alone it's okay to tap out

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[deny_caballero]: it's okay to go get help because
the reality is the sooner we get you

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[deny_caballero]: squared away the sooner we address your
issues the sooner we can get you back

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[deny_caballero]: on the team the sooner we can

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[deny_caballero]: have you back operational u and for
a lot of us i was struggling with

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[deny_caballero]: this for years it just so happened
that finally the last straw was the last

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[deny_caballero]: deployment and everything just fell apart was
blessed that when i finally started getting help

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[deny_caballero]: and had gotten a real good understanding
of my tools the things all the modalitis

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[deny_caballero]: that i needed i was able to
take that and directly give it to some

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[deny_caballero]: of my teammates who also cost on
the show so eric and david those are

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[deny_caballero]: guys that i served in afghanistan with
and then regan paul we had two deployment

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[deny_caballero]: in irak back when they were you
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[deny_caballero]: deployment and what worked for us before
i got help was that text support that

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[deny_caballero]: hey i'm not doing so good are
you guys doing so good we're all struggling

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[deny_caballero]: so even though we weren't um getting
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[deny_caballero]: was beneficial but at some point we
all have to go get help and that's

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[deny_caballero]: what security call really is it's appeared
to peer support network and a podcast all

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[deny_caballero]: in one because we want to lure
you in with the hilarious content we want

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[deny_caballero]: to lure you in with some of
the great stories and special guests we have

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[deny_caballero]: we really hope that you tune in
and drop in on some of our thursday

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[deny_caballero]: night pere to pere support groups on
zoom and then eventually build up that courage

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[deny_caballero]: build up that confidence and say you
know what if denny gregg paul ryan and

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[deny_caballero]: eric and mike and all these guys
can go get help and i can't do

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[deny_caballero]: because not only do i deserve it
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[pothead_parent]: hm

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[deny_caballero]: my mother and my father they deserve
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[deny_caballero]: me coming back home

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[deny_caballero]: so we started with our endeavor about
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[deny_caballero]: um so we were at first it
was just like hey we have this we

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[deny_caballero]: have the support thing let's try to
get it out so everybody can feel it

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[deny_caballero]: and then as i got worse and
realized that i needed help i was like

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[deny_caballero]: okay like i can't i can't do
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[deny_caballero]: we can fight through and just put
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[deny_caballero]: i'm goin t be able to do
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[deny_caballero]: this is an enemy that none of
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[pothead_parent]: ye

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[deny_caballero]: you can white local sobriety you can
whiten up a lot of things in life

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[deny_caballero]: and my hat's off to you if
you can make it on your own but

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[deny_caballero]: the truth is and the reason why
so many of us fail is because we

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[deny_caballero]: don't reach out for help we failed
to see the human connection on the other

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[deny_caballero]: side of that desk when we're talking
to our therapy ark counsellor or therapist are

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[deny_caballero]: councillor and we failed to see them
as human beings that desperately want to connect

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[deny_caballero]: with us and we want to put
on that rough exterior of like you don't

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[deny_caballero]: know what it's like reality is a
lot people that choose to be a therapist

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[deny_caballero]: that choose to be councillors they went
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[deny_caballero]: might not be survivors of p t
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[deny_caballero]: war but they are also survivors of
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[deny_caballero]: and that's a remarkable connection to have
somebody that wants to help you heal and

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[deny_caballero]: overcome and it's a it's like i
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[deny_caballero]: it's a matter of finding the right
person finding the right chemistry and peer to

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[deny_caballero]: pere support is desperately needed right now
we're in a crisis a mental health crisis

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[deny_caballero]: and that means at there's a huge
backlog of us that need help men and

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[deny_caballero]: women but

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[pothead_parent]: forgot

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[deny_caballero]: there's a shortage care givers shortage of
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[deny_caballero]: a lot more emphasis on peter to
pure support

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[deny_caballero]: and it's something that you can't not
everybody can jump in to do it you

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[deny_caballero]: have to jump in when you're on
your path to recovery and you're using tools

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[deny_caballero]: and you have modalities you can show
people use because i will argue this when

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[deny_caballero]: i thought i was at my best
i wasn't ready to help others

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[pothead_parent]: hm

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[deny_caballero]: i needed to get to a point
where i could swim my own and had

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[deny_caballero]: tools and handouts that things that i
did because the reality is until you're tested

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[deny_caballero]: over and over again and you realize
that hey like anxiety is going to always

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[deny_caballero]: happen depression is going to come and
go i mean i'm going to have some

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[deny_caballero]: anger issues the reality is it's not
a road in did we cross over and

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[deny_caballero]: then we're good it's a matter of
understanding that you're going to veer off but

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: check yourself you can be like you
know i'm not going to explode i'm going

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[deny_caballero]: to take a time out i'm gonna
go outside i'm gonna center i'm goin t

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[deny_caballero]: do a mindfulness walk and then i'm
going to come back n gonna tackle this

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[deny_caballero]: argument the situation can be diffused i
don't have to be at my worst with

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[pothead_parent]: teach that right i was going to
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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: bit but you teach like the grounding
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[deny_caballero]: yep

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[pothead_parent]: everybody had

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[deny_caballero]: yep

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[pothead_parent]: a miran that day and that pepper
man actually saved my

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[pothead_parent]: as very much

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[deny_caballero]: that's one of the things that was
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[deny_caballero]: pass off to other guys that seemed
like such an ancient foreign technique was a

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[deny_caballero]: grounding exercise because

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[deny_caballero]: at my worst i didn't know what
grounding was i didn't know what a five

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[deny_caballero]: four three to one exercise was and
these are the tools that i was immediately

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[deny_caballero]: able to use so why wouldn't i
pass that off to guys or girls that

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[pothead_parent]: it's

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[pothead_parent]: a saying it's like if you you
know being a vet and you're enraged you're

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[pothead_parent]: like

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: i'm not funking five four three two
one im gonna put

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: someone in the ground like it's

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: have to have that ego check of

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[deny_caballero]: yes

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[pothead_parent]: hey listen you're fucked up you need
to stop go out so like my biggest

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[pothead_parent]: thing and she knows when i get
pissed off is walking away i'm not walking

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[pothead_parent]: away from you and i walk away
from the argument i'm just getting to funk

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[pothead_parent]: away because whatever happens from this point
on is not going to be good verbally

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[pothead_parent]: or whatever the hell is going to
happen or not happen

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[deny_caballero]: how powerful would it be if you
get to the point where you're like

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: he i know if we continue i
can't even think or talk

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: it gets so convoluted up here that
i just

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[pothead_parent]: an

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[deny_caballero]: just want to go to anger because
i can't talk i

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[pothead_parent]: m

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[deny_caballero]: can't think of the words i want
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[pothead_parent]: hm

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[deny_caballero]: i started using white boards this is
one of the things that for couples that

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you are always up regulated and fighter flight

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[deny_caballero]: it means when you mess up or
something s wrong and you n your wife

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zero to start off with you're like ninety

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[deny_caballero]: so whenever you get to the where
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[deny_caballero]: so now

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[pothead_parent]: hm

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[deny_caballero]: you just want to scream and deflect
and and break things so don't do that

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[pothead_parent]: oh

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[deny_caballero]: as just pause

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[pothead_parent]: it's

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[pothead_parent]: p t s d like i just
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[deny_caballero]: oh

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[pothead_parent]: somewhere else and i can't remember if
it was not a podcast or a show

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[pothead_parent]: but people always think like it is
and it's not that p t s d

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[pothead_parent]: is like you know i walked over
dead bodies i've killed people

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: i've seen people blow up by funk
my buddy which it is but the p

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[pothead_parent]: t s d in my opinion and
i'm not quoting anybody stealing this from because

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[pothead_parent]: i heard in that came where it
is p t s d is like being

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[pothead_parent]: turned on a hundred and fifty percent
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[deny_caballero]: yes

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[pothead_parent]: fucking pay if they go and that's
where you get your norm you're sayanytime you

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[pothead_parent]: snap out you're already there like it
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[deny_caballero]: exactly

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[pothead_parent]: take any or any type of trauma
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[pothead_parent]: i mean we immediately think if something
dramatic happened to a woman it's i mean

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[pothead_parent]: i hate to just go right into
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[pothead_parent]: like they've been raised or you know
it doesn't even have to be it is

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[deny_caballero]: hm

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[pothead_parent]: have to be that big it could
be you as a child you know getting

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[pothead_parent]: made fun of in class you know
from the girls because you were a poketadress

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[pothead_parent]: everyone else is wearing a striped dress
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[pothead_parent]: and that exact traumatic moment for you
can totally deter you in so many different

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[pothead_parent]: ways as you get older i could
think of so many countless things as a

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that created some type of o c d

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[pothead_parent]: or you know my anxiety or any
of that that like yeah i mean spot

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[pothead_parent]: on the fact that like to be
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[pothead_parent]: right and kind like dissect it and
take like oh okay well what happened to

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[pothead_parent]: me i never did that before i
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[pothead_parent]: and so for you guys like i
can't imagine you know how to even find

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because you do have know one guy who

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[pothead_parent]: you know something could have happened and
he was a cook in the kitchen you

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[pothead_parent]: know and i had a bullet was
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[deny_caballero]: ye

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[pothead_parent]: but you know

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: it's like and then it's like how
do you i'm asking you kathlike

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: create those bonds or find those connections
for your people then

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[deny_caballero]: yeah it's the easiest thing is to
understand and we're great ambassadors because trauma is

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[deny_caballero]: trauma

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[pothead_parent]: m

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[deny_caballero]: and the beauty of this is we
have special operators people like myself green bray

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[deny_caballero]: marsac sniper eric i mean he's done
it all been there done it all has

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[deny_caballero]: every teacher

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[pothead_parent]: i

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[deny_caballero]: you can imagine

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: and same with david but then we
also have gregg and ryan and we are

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: warrior we're not telling anybody that there
history and their trauma doesn't count because the

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[deny_caballero]: reality is if it's traumatic to you
if it happened and it made you feel

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[deny_caballero]: and you reacted a certain way and
it caused trauma within you

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[pothead_parent]: oh

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[deny_caballero]: that's all it takes you don't have
to come in and be scared to share

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[deny_caballero]: with one of us or whoever is
in the group because we understand it's not

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[deny_caballero]: about just what you experience in combat
in the military it's

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[pothead_parent]: m

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[deny_caballero]: about what happened to you as a
child what happened to you as a civilian

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: a lot of the things that we
all go through in life we try to

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[deny_caballero]: discount and say well that doesn't matter
i did it for a long time

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[pothead_parent]: i

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[deny_caballero]: i'm

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[pothead_parent]: still

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[deny_caballero]: a survivor of civilian trauma horrible trauma
and because i lived through it and because

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[pothead_parent]: m

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[deny_caballero]: it i discounted it and like well
it's not that big of a deal

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[pothead_parent]: i think that's where the disconnecting the
not it one of the disconnects and the

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[pothead_parent]: v a to vets is you finally
muster up the balls or the courage or

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[pothead_parent]: whatever to say i got a fucking
issue i need to go talk to somebody

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[pothead_parent]: and you sit down in front of
the person that is not even looking at

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[pothead_parent]: you they're facing this way and they're
just fucking hand

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[deny_caballero]: m

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[pothead_parent]: jamonshipncomputer

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: and then all of a sudnthey'relike al
your prescription s ready at the pharmacy i

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[pothead_parent]: go the what fucking prescription i told
you i'm suicidal and i need to talk

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: to somebody what the fuck is going
on here they don't care but everybody now

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[pothead_parent]: like you're talking about with this mental
health crisis there's an opium crisis and mental

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[pothead_parent]: health crisis which are

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[deny_caballero]: hope

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[pothead_parent]: linked together thank you to the v
a that i know i was over prescribed

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[pothead_parent]: one hundred percent i was going to
three

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[deny_caballero]: absolutely

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[pothead_parent]: different doctors that's how i was dealing
with it i was taking a handful of

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[pothead_parent]: tabs with fucking whiskey on the way
down the hat was normal that's just what

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[pothead_parent]: we knew but these groups i hope
to god in about like yours and ours

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[pothead_parent]: is the platforms that are opening up
for just people to talk like

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: the trauma like you're saying it's not
you know i'm sleeping and all of a

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[pothead_parent]: sudden i got dead bodies in my
head that's not what i'm saying it's you

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[pothead_parent]: know you're up are and some dude
slams into you and you're like hey man

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[pothead_parent]: it's okay and he starts with you
it's like de just please leave me alone

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[pothead_parent]: like i don't want to do this
and it's understanding that like it's not the

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[pothead_parent]: way it sounds but like don't treat
an elder relied person the same way as

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[pothead_parent]: you treat a twenty year old you
don't treat a infant child the way you

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[pothead_parent]: treat grandma is

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: total you have to hvedifferent gloves for
everybody that's like if you know someone has

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[pothead_parent]: p t s either like like i
don't want to talk to you like i

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[pothead_parent]: like it needs to

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[deny_caballero]: yeah

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[pothead_parent]: be described better that it's i'm just
you know instead of being here you're here

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[pothead_parent]: an there ain't nothing wrong with that
because when ship pops off in th middle

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[pothead_parent]: public

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[deny_caballero]: oh

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[pothead_parent]: you're gonna what people like me and
you right the funk my god i'm glad

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[pothead_parent]: he's here he's not crazy ship

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[deny_caballero]: well

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[pothead_parent]: like

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[deny_caballero]: see

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[pothead_parent]: that

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[deny_caballero]: and that's that's the one thing that
i always explained to people we think and

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[deny_caballero]: we're told that being up regulated

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[pothead_parent]: m

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[deny_caballero]: is why

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[pothead_parent]: m

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[deny_caballero]: our families our neighbors our community need
us

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: is wrong i fought against that idea
of like i need to be alert like

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[deny_caballero]: this i need to be able to
sit with my back against the wall facing

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[deny_caballero]: the exit i need to be that
guy

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[pothead_parent]: ye

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[deny_caballero]: i realized after i finally got through
and understood what it really meant to be

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[deny_caballero]: constantly up regulated being in fight or
flight that reptile brain need to be ready

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[deny_caballero]: i need to be ready your body
is constantly just pump into drentalin and you're

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[deny_caballero]: constantly tired because you alwysonalert

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[pothead_parent]: m

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[deny_caballero]: i would argue and i finally realized
i am just like in the military

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[pothead_parent]: oh

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[deny_caballero]: just like when you are on patrol
or you're setting up what do you want

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[deny_caballero]: what is the one thing you want
to do after you have security set an

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[deny_caballero]: rest cycle why if my guys my
dudes are too exhausted they are no good

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[deny_caballero]: to me

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[pothead_parent]: shot him

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[deny_caballero]: pull them in get your security established
get rest cycle going i need dude to

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[deny_caballero]: get rest and your heaviest hitter the
dude that you need to be there when

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[deny_caballero]: the ship gets hot your j tack
dude as soon as you can i need

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[deny_caballero]: you rotating responsibilities with the other c
c t you guys got to get some

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[deny_caballero]: rest so

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: even our most viable and most potent
hitters if we're willing to put them down

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[deny_caballero]: to get some rest we need to
realize that we ourselves and our body the

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[deny_caballero]: human physiology needs rest

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[pothead_parent]: absolutely way

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[deny_caballero]: and it's only go ahead

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[pothead_parent]: i was wondering what do you do
i mean what are as for you like

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[pothead_parent]: that changed

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[deny_caballero]: it was understanding that the the real
important of mindfulness of my life being aware

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[deny_caballero]: because i was fighting that idea that
i had to be alert and switched on

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[deny_caballero]: when that drains me doesn't make me
an effective person i forget everything i am

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[deny_caballero]: no good to my wife i'm no
good to the people that rely on me

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[deny_caballero]: i'm no good as a business owner
i'm no good as a person if i'm

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[deny_caballero]: constantly switched on constantly just thinking i
have to juggle everything now

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[pothead_parent]: so what do you do to find
rest yourself a mass

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[deny_caballero]: meditate my biggest

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[pothead_parent]: oh

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[deny_caballero]: thing is meditation understanding that my mental
health is number one my mental

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[pothead_parent]: m

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[deny_caballero]: health is a balancing act a juggling
act if you will of different modalities i'm

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[deny_caballero]: a huge advocate for understanding your medication
they just want to give you medication just

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[deny_caballero]: say i take it it lasted about
three or four times before i realized you're

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[deny_caballero]: playing an experiment

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[pothead_parent]: you're a monkey

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[deny_caballero]: i need to be educated and i
can't just rely on me and it's it's

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[deny_caballero]: funny i can't just rely on googling
it i have to go to places have

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[deny_caballero]: to go to people and ask and
talk to doctors and get you know white

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[deny_caballero]: papers and i'm telling you get that
methodical with your research on your medication because

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[deny_caballero]: all it takes is that one medication
that they had me on for nightmares was

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[pothead_parent]: rob

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[deny_caballero]: actually

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[pothead_parent]: was

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[deny_caballero]: counter intuitive um it was

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[pothead_parent]: pen

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[deny_caballero]: mine press the first time the first
time they had me on many press was

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[deny_caballero]: counter intuitive to and kind of negating
and working against other medications never knew that

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[pothead_parent]: hm

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[deny_caballero]: so then i realized okay medication is
good but as long as i know what

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[deny_caballero]: i'm taking it's gonna counteract with everything
i'm on you know testostrontherapy but

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[pothead_parent]: yeah

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[deny_caballero]: at first it didn't tell me that
hey if you're trying to have kids this

397
00:19:01,398 --> 00:19:05,626
[deny_caballero]: is also something you have to be
aware of you have to understand that the

398
00:19:05,767 --> 00:19:11,468
[deny_caballero]: impact this will have on you and
your body and there's consequences there's

399
00:19:11,342 --> 00:19:11,443
[pothead_parent]: it's

400
00:19:11,488 --> 00:19:13,932
[deny_caballero]: no consequences for mindfulness there's no consequences

401
00:19:14,360 --> 00:19:14,441
[pothead_parent]: no

402
00:19:14,373 --> 00:19:19,241
[deny_caballero]: to being able to down regulate and
breathe i didn't know that i was breathing

403
00:19:19,822 --> 00:19:22,446
[deny_caballero]: wrong as i didn't know that there
like you can't tell me there's a wrong

404
00:19:22,486 --> 00:19:23,047
[deny_caballero]: way to breathe

405
00:19:23,350 --> 00:19:23,492
[pothead_parent]: a lot

406
00:19:23,428 --> 00:19:23,548
[deny_caballero]: yeah

407
00:19:23,552 --> 00:19:23,593
[pothead_parent]: of

408
00:19:23,588 --> 00:19:23,728
[deny_caballero]: there

409
00:19:23,633 --> 00:19:23,734
[pothead_parent]: them

410
00:19:23,809 --> 00:19:25,412
[deny_caballero]: is i was a mouth breather

411
00:19:26,640 --> 00:19:26,860
[pothead_parent]: yeah

412
00:19:26,855 --> 00:19:31,926
[deny_caballero]: you know i'm somebody that's diagnosed you
know you know

413
00:19:31,808 --> 00:19:36,836
[pothead_parent]: joe it's funny to say that about
like the medication and ship so this will

414
00:19:36,857 --> 00:19:39,684
[pothead_parent]: probably sunk me in the future but
hopefully every does well and i don't have

415
00:19:39,704 --> 00:19:43,058
[pothead_parent]: to really care about the v anymore
but explain

416
00:19:42,780 --> 00:19:44,441
[deny_caballero]: don't hope and pray take

417
00:19:44,270 --> 00:19:44,331
[pothead_parent]: no

418
00:19:44,582 --> 00:19:44,842
[deny_caballero]: action

419
00:19:50,600 --> 00:19:52,487
[pothead_parent]: like service connected guys right you got
guys

420
00:19:52,359 --> 00:19:52,441
[deny_caballero]: no

421
00:19:52,568 --> 00:19:58,444
[pothead_parent]: at en percent hundred percent fifty sixty
everywhere in between my conditions that i'm disabled

422
00:19:58,524 --> 00:20:01,989
[pothead_parent]: for right are just getting fucking way
worse my body's breaking

423
00:20:01,718 --> 00:20:01,860
[deny_caballero]: yeah

424
00:20:02,070 --> 00:20:04,634
[pothead_parent]: every time i want to work out
i throw my back out i literal have

425
00:20:04,674 --> 00:20:07,358
[pothead_parent]: to go to the v to get
shots i've had a micrene for five fucking

426
00:20:07,418 --> 00:20:11,465
[pothead_parent]: days there's nothing wrong i just can't
figure it out no there's nothing wrong you

427
00:20:11,485 --> 00:20:14,029
[pothead_parent]: don't want to invest the time and
the resources in the effort to figure it

428
00:20:14,070 --> 00:20:18,156
[pothead_parent]: out so the reason i say this
is i had actually this morning about four

429
00:20:18,196 --> 00:20:23,417
[pothead_parent]: hours ago i had come disability appointment
to talk to them about in my percentage

430
00:20:24,260 --> 00:20:27,741
[pothead_parent]: the guy he brings up p t
s d we talk and i said yeah

431
00:20:27,781 --> 00:20:32,487
[pothead_parent]: i have ptsdsaid no medication is going
to treat that it just minorly suppresses it

432
00:20:32,808 --> 00:20:37,304
[pothead_parent]: depending on when it works um that
i told him i said listen the medication

433
00:20:37,344 --> 00:20:40,149
[pothead_parent]: i've been on i'm off of all
of them i said i feel great i

434
00:20:40,229 --> 00:20:43,915
[pothead_parent]: have no heartburn i'm not sick in
the morning one medication i found out like

435
00:20:43,955 --> 00:20:46,928
[pothead_parent]: you was not supposed to be prescribed
to people he did

436
00:20:47,728 --> 00:20:48,418
[deny_caballero]: yeah

437
00:20:47,800 --> 00:20:50,825
[pothead_parent]: i was at it for four years
bro i couldn't sleep at night it was

438
00:20:50,865 --> 00:20:51,226
[pothead_parent]: horrible

439
00:20:51,618 --> 00:20:52,042
[deny_caballero]: exactly

440
00:20:52,388 --> 00:20:55,053
[pothead_parent]: and i told the guy said i
finally feel good for like the last couple

441
00:20:55,073 --> 00:20:59,830
[pothead_parent]: of weeks it's nice bro he literally
pulls his mask down turns to me because

442
00:20:59,850 --> 00:21:03,856
[pothead_parent]: of course you now un computer turns
to me and goes just make sure when

443
00:21:03,896 --> 00:21:05,298
[pothead_parent]: you come to your camp appointment

444
00:21:05,128 --> 00:21:05,878
[deny_caballero]: yeah

445
00:21:05,318 --> 00:21:06,139
[pothead_parent]: you play the part

446
00:21:07,321 --> 00:21:07,906
[deny_caballero]: oh wow

447
00:21:08,530 --> 00:21:11,497
[pothead_parent]: i swear to god if i go
disappearing from this fucking podcast this is why

448
00:21:11,657 --> 00:21:14,855
[pothead_parent]: i said so i'm not allowed to
be happy for one day i said i

449
00:21:14,915 --> 00:21:17,872
[pothead_parent]: still have p t s d but
can't i be happy so i need to

450
00:21:17,912 --> 00:21:21,539
[pothead_parent]: come in here fucking sad miserable and
crying for them to believe me he said

451
00:21:21,559 --> 00:21:24,064
[pothead_parent]: they actually have the right if i
come in there in a good mood to

452
00:21:24,265 --> 00:21:28,112
[pothead_parent]: lower my fucking rating o fucked is
that that's

453
00:21:28,338 --> 00:21:28,480
[deny_caballero]: yeah

454
00:21:28,993 --> 00:21:33,681
[pothead_parent]: crazy that's crazy i think we're all
just getting to that point though that we're

455
00:21:33,781 --> 00:21:39,993
[pothead_parent]: understanding that you know our doctors are
pharmacy like it's just just sales

456
00:21:40,549 --> 00:21:40,751
[deny_caballero]: yeah

457
00:21:41,117 --> 00:21:41,237
[pothead_parent]: and

458
00:21:41,468 --> 00:21:46,803
[deny_caballero]: you have to you have to really
fight ah and it sucks it sucks for

459
00:21:46,844 --> 00:21:51,274
[deny_caballero]: a lot of our veterans they can't
choose and pick and choose the best doctors

460
00:21:53,948 --> 00:22:02,752
[deny_caballero]: and i have been blessed absolutely blessed
um i've found not only compassionate professionals that

461
00:22:02,812 --> 00:22:08,461
[deny_caballero]: really care and are invested in my
health but individuals that we're in my shoes

462
00:22:08,581 --> 00:22:15,175
[deny_caballero]: individuals that have seen at first hand
individuals are married literally married into this regiment

463
00:22:15,805 --> 00:22:16,320
[pothead_parent]: hm

464
00:22:15,818 --> 00:22:23,191
[deny_caballero]: they're now practicing on the outside and
that's what it takes compassion somebody that cares

465
00:22:23,472 --> 00:22:28,409
[deny_caballero]: nurturing wanting to see the because everything
that i've learned about the system and the

466
00:22:29,110 --> 00:22:33,477
[deny_caballero]: awful side of the system like the
bad parts of it are from providers

467
00:22:34,411 --> 00:22:35,114
[pothead_parent]: dude yeah they

468
00:22:35,138 --> 00:22:35,579
[deny_caballero]: providers

469
00:22:35,175 --> 00:22:35,436
[pothead_parent]: all to

470
00:22:35,659 --> 00:22:39,186
[deny_caballero]: are willing to be honest and open
to say i care about you i want

471
00:22:39,246 --> 00:22:43,034
[deny_caballero]: the best for you this is what
i'm recommending because by law this is what

472
00:22:43,095 --> 00:22:48,031
[deny_caballero]: i have to do oh okay so
yeah let's figure out a way to get

473
00:22:48,111 --> 00:22:49,733
[deny_caballero]: you this care that you need

474
00:22:50,010 --> 00:22:50,152
[pothead_parent]: yeah

475
00:22:50,333 --> 00:22:58,014
[deny_caballero]: um and i am not i'm not
a anti medication anti anything but i am

476
00:22:58,054 --> 00:23:01,842
[deny_caballero]: a passionate advocate for all your modalities
you have to understand

477
00:23:01,394 --> 00:23:01,558
[pothead_parent]: yeah

478
00:23:01,983 --> 00:23:03,346
[deny_caballero]: what works as is ares

479
00:23:04,174 --> 00:23:04,358
[pothead_parent]: kay

480
00:23:04,328 --> 00:23:08,891
[deny_caballero]: some of the longest and test and
medication s out there but even i know

481
00:23:08,951 --> 00:23:10,934
[deny_caballero]: i don't want to be on it
for the rest of my life but

482
00:23:10,894 --> 00:23:11,036
[pothead_parent]: just

483
00:23:10,954 --> 00:23:11,335
[deny_caballero]: that doesn't

484
00:23:11,138 --> 00:23:11,220
[pothead_parent]: up

485
00:23:11,375 --> 00:23:17,545
[deny_caballero]: mean that i'm going to cold turkey
cut them off because that's creating something my

486
00:23:17,646 --> 00:23:22,313
[deny_caballero]: body used to naturally produced at normal
or a little bit less than normal levels

487
00:23:22,874 --> 00:23:23,075
[deny_caballero]: um

488
00:23:23,060 --> 00:23:23,202
[pothead_parent]: yeah

489
00:23:23,515 --> 00:23:27,262
[deny_caballero]: but now i'm dependent on him so
that means that when i decide that i'm

490
00:23:27,322 --> 00:23:28,724
[deny_caballero]: going to come off of them it

491
00:23:28,741 --> 00:23:28,883
[pothead_parent]: fuck

492
00:23:28,744 --> 00:23:33,272
[deny_caballero]: will be with compassionate care from a
doctor i trust to help me scale back

493
00:23:33,792 --> 00:23:37,378
[deny_caballero]: because i've seen the data you can
look up the data any time you quit

494
00:23:37,499 --> 00:23:42,527
[deny_caballero]: something cold turkey depending on what it
is it could be very horrible for you

495
00:23:42,567 --> 00:23:45,612
[deny_caballero]: so i know advocate that anybody cold
turkey quits anything

496
00:23:46,031 --> 00:23:46,132
[pothead_parent]: so

497
00:23:46,273 --> 00:23:46,814
[deny_caballero]: understand

498
00:23:46,497 --> 00:23:46,518
[pothead_parent]: i

499
00:23:47,496 --> 00:23:47,716
[deny_caballero]: go ahead

500
00:23:48,140 --> 00:23:53,400
[pothead_parent]: and just because i have a question
with that so i mean i did i

501
00:23:53,500 --> 00:23:57,967
[pothead_parent]: decided to just do a cold turkey
i was on prestige it was during the

502
00:23:58,047 --> 00:24:03,416
[pothead_parent]: time that you know the kids everything
was just one thing after another we were

503
00:24:03,597 --> 00:24:06,922
[pothead_parent]: in a hospital for a month one
child then the other it was

504
00:24:06,918 --> 00:24:07,041
[deny_caballero]: yeah

505
00:24:06,982 --> 00:24:13,273
[pothead_parent]: just and so it was like tears
right away and so then recently i stopped

506
00:24:13,433 --> 00:24:22,596
[pothead_parent]: because you know my prescription was up
and whatever i started taking mushrooms so i

507
00:24:22,998 --> 00:24:24,646
[pothead_parent]: feel as though

508
00:24:24,368 --> 00:24:26,330
[deny_caballero]: till sabonsilsybon is amazing by the way

509
00:24:26,590 --> 00:24:31,537
[pothead_parent]: not you almost just read our that
might be safer then so

510
00:24:31,438 --> 00:24:32,248
[deny_caballero]: yeah

511
00:24:31,677 --> 00:24:38,808
[pothead_parent]: it that it's like i decided to
feel like a tough subject on myself i

512
00:24:38,888 --> 00:24:44,377
[pothead_parent]: guess because at this point i understand
myself

513
00:24:44,900 --> 00:24:45,041
[deny_caballero]: yeah

514
00:24:44,938 --> 00:24:53,693
[pothead_parent]: right i've learned some things i've dissected
myself mentally physically what i need soulfully all

515
00:24:53,753 --> 00:25:00,672
[pothead_parent]: of it the point i just don't
care about any else other than feeling whole

516
00:25:00,913 --> 00:25:01,194
[pothead_parent]: right

517
00:25:01,128 --> 00:25:04,762
[deny_caballero]: yeah and you said it right there
you did the groundwork he understood

518
00:25:04,643 --> 00:25:04,746
[pothead_parent]: it

519
00:25:05,343 --> 00:25:07,427
[deny_caballero]: um there's a lot of people that
don't do it there's

520
00:25:07,261 --> 00:25:07,446
[pothead_parent]: right

521
00:25:07,447 --> 00:25:09,250
[deny_caballero]: a lot of people that just fucking
i'm done with it

522
00:25:09,492 --> 00:25:09,512
[pothead_parent]: i

523
00:25:09,590 --> 00:25:12,936
[deny_caballero]: and it's like funk dude there's a
lot of chemistry there's a lot of things

524
00:25:12,743 --> 00:25:12,886
[pothead_parent]: yes

525
00:25:13,016 --> 00:25:13,697
[deny_caballero]: that you

526
00:25:14,082 --> 00:25:14,246
[pothead_parent]: right

527
00:25:14,118 --> 00:25:18,685
[deny_caballero]: taking this medication um for seven eight
ten fucking years don't

528
00:25:18,641 --> 00:25:19,004
[pothead_parent]: reid

529
00:25:18,725 --> 00:25:20,148
[deny_caballero]: just quick whole turkey know the

530
00:25:20,071 --> 00:25:20,213
[pothead_parent]: right

531
00:25:20,208 --> 00:25:24,255
[deny_caballero]: research know how your body is going
to react i know for fact i don't

532
00:25:24,295 --> 00:25:25,336
[deny_caballero]: want to do the rest of my
life

533
00:25:26,021 --> 00:25:26,183
[pothead_parent]: right

534
00:25:26,118 --> 00:25:27,560
[deny_caballero]: as is arise i don't

535
00:25:27,430 --> 00:25:28,435
[pothead_parent]: right now

536
00:25:28,542 --> 00:25:32,548
[deny_caballero]: but i am aware that it's scary
if i just stopped one day and just

537
00:25:32,589 --> 00:25:33,931
[deny_caballero]: like you know

538
00:25:34,224 --> 00:25:34,508
[pothead_parent]: do that

539
00:25:34,552 --> 00:25:34,672
[deny_caballero]: all

540
00:25:34,569 --> 00:25:34,589
[pothead_parent]: i

541
00:25:34,712 --> 00:25:35,714
[deny_caballero]: this is already fucked

542
00:25:36,010 --> 00:25:38,474
[pothead_parent]: and i'm not knowing it but what
i

543
00:25:38,468 --> 00:25:38,630
[deny_caballero]: yeah

544
00:25:38,594 --> 00:25:42,100
[pothead_parent]: am ing as you know me and
me and we did talk about this at

545
00:25:42,421 --> 00:25:44,284
[pothead_parent]: you know the mid conference and i
definitely

546
00:25:44,071 --> 00:25:44,638
[deny_caballero]: hm

547
00:25:44,344 --> 00:25:47,349
[pothead_parent]: think people do need to hear that
that you know

548
00:25:47,438 --> 00:25:47,623
[deny_caballero]: yes

549
00:25:47,990 --> 00:25:53,038
[pothead_parent]: i mean me and derrick have done
ketameand you know we smoked weed i enjoy

550
00:25:53,158 --> 00:26:00,451
[pothead_parent]: shrooms um you know but unless you
get that ground work done that's when consider

551
00:26:00,551 --> 00:26:04,377
[pothead_parent]: all of this that you're in that
recreational phase of it and that

552
00:26:04,238 --> 00:26:04,380
[deny_caballero]: yeah

553
00:26:04,437 --> 00:26:10,127
[pothead_parent]: is totally okay and that is totally
fun and i definitely condone it more than

554
00:26:10,247 --> 00:26:19,042
[pothead_parent]: alcohol honestly in my eyes but in
order to get those healing and healthy effects

555
00:26:19,302 --> 00:26:24,951
[pothead_parent]: from you know these medicinal plants from
even your medication that you're taking

556
00:26:24,884 --> 00:26:25,438
[deny_caballero]: hm

557
00:26:25,032 --> 00:26:31,002
[pothead_parent]: from the doctor if that groundwork isn't
done um you know you're not going to

558
00:26:31,142 --> 00:26:35,769
[pothead_parent]: get very far you're just going to
keep masking just

559
00:26:35,758 --> 00:26:35,900
[deny_caballero]: yep

560
00:26:35,870 --> 00:26:39,536
[pothead_parent]: going to keep covering it up you're
going to keep sliding it under the rug

561
00:26:40,037 --> 00:26:45,586
[pothead_parent]: instead of actually you know healing yourself
and gaining those healing properties because these plants

562
00:26:45,806 --> 00:26:48,791
[pothead_parent]: do have that fact it's

563
00:26:48,798 --> 00:26:48,919
[deny_caballero]: yep

564
00:26:48,911 --> 00:26:52,557
[pothead_parent]: just the fact that you have to
know yourself and that's why people have you

565
00:26:52,618 --> 00:26:57,606
[pothead_parent]: know bad trips or whatever you want
to call them you know they eat too

566
00:26:57,686 --> 00:27:01,512
[pothead_parent]: many brownies and you know that was
hard well it's because it gets you in

567
00:27:01,572 --> 00:27:05,639
[pothead_parent]: your head and if you're not ready
for it in your head then you're not

568
00:27:05,719 --> 00:27:09,666
[pothead_parent]: ready for it you know to take
you to those next levels because after it

569
00:27:09,726 --> 00:27:16,457
[pothead_parent]: gets to the healing it gets to
that you know next level understanding opening different

570
00:27:16,557 --> 00:27:22,367
[pothead_parent]: segues to your brain and so with
you i mean i know you said you've

571
00:27:22,427 --> 00:27:24,494
[pothead_parent]: never even smoked canada before have you

572
00:27:24,988 --> 00:27:25,349
[deny_caballero]: no no

573
00:27:25,761 --> 00:27:25,782
[pothead_parent]: i

574
00:27:25,849 --> 00:27:25,950
[deny_caballero]: no

575
00:27:25,925 --> 00:27:26,027
[pothead_parent]: too

576
00:27:26,090 --> 00:27:27,011
[deny_caballero]: that's a and

577
00:27:27,061 --> 00:27:27,222
[pothead_parent]: fuck

578
00:27:27,071 --> 00:27:32,741
[deny_caballero]: the thing that's that's amazing about what
i'm looking forward into doing is i'm doing

579
00:27:33,743 --> 00:27:41,315
[deny_caballero]: so much studying and standing of every
modality that's out there because what works for

580
00:27:41,355 --> 00:27:44,380
[deny_caballero]: me may not work for somebody down
the road might not work for the other

581
00:27:44,420 --> 00:27:48,207
[deny_caballero]: person i want people to be educated
i want people to be able to read

582
00:27:49,148 --> 00:27:54,978
[deny_caballero]: ram dass and understand the gateway and
the importance of setting in state if you're

583
00:27:54,998 --> 00:27:58,884
[deny_caballero]: going to voyage if you're gonna take
that voyage and take that that big leap

584
00:27:59,025 --> 00:28:01,449
[deny_caballero]: into silesian understand and it is

585
00:28:01,451 --> 00:28:01,595
[pothead_parent]: yeah

586
00:28:01,509 --> 00:28:06,056
[deny_caballero]: a medicine understand where it comes from
understand the history of it there's a reason

587
00:28:06,157 --> 00:28:11,125
[deny_caballero]: why you go to specific places to
do ask there's a reason why you go

588
00:28:11,165 --> 00:28:16,715
[deny_caballero]: to spec specific places to do kinemin
treatment for either in tens of pain or

589
00:28:16,816 --> 00:28:16,936
[deny_caballero]: for

590
00:28:16,824 --> 00:28:16,845
[pothead_parent]: m

591
00:28:16,996 --> 00:28:17,457
[deny_caballero]: p t s d

592
00:28:18,090 --> 00:28:18,252
[pothead_parent]: right

593
00:28:18,319 --> 00:28:25,629
[deny_caballero]: these tools these medicines are sacred i
don't i don't see and first of all

594
00:28:25,710 --> 00:28:28,959
[deny_caballero]: alcohol is horrible alcohol is fucking garbage
there's

595
00:28:28,896 --> 00:28:28,957
[pothead_parent]: it

596
00:28:28,999 --> 00:28:30,804
[deny_caballero]: no medicinal purpose to alcohol

597
00:28:31,221 --> 00:28:31,442
[pothead_parent]: kills

598
00:28:34,420 --> 00:28:37,045
[deny_caballero]: and i don't i don't think that
i ever want to get to the point

599
00:28:37,626 --> 00:28:46,065
[deny_caballero]: of um i a huge advocate everything
that's out there that's proving the work and

600
00:28:46,345 --> 00:28:51,060
[deny_caballero]: a lot of those modalities are labeled
bad by the government it's the truth

601
00:28:51,532 --> 00:28:51,853
[pothead_parent]: it's funny

602
00:28:51,964 --> 00:28:52,104
[deny_caballero]: when

603
00:28:52,134 --> 00:28:56,104
[pothead_parent]: now nature is good and now you
know they know we know and it's

604
00:28:56,098 --> 00:28:56,258
[deny_caballero]: well

605
00:28:56,806 --> 00:28:56,926
[pothead_parent]: like

606
00:28:56,838 --> 00:28:56,918
[deny_caballero]: and

607
00:28:56,986 --> 00:28:57,047
[pothead_parent]: we

608
00:28:57,319 --> 00:29:00,182
[deny_caballero]: i don't want to go on a
tangent but and if you look at the

609
00:29:00,222 --> 00:29:06,439
[deny_caballero]: way l s d cilisiban mariana the
way it's been billified who are the first

610
00:29:06,519 --> 00:29:10,421
[deny_caballero]: people to really start working on l
s d because you have people in the

611
00:29:10,522 --> 00:29:15,835
[deny_caballero]: so called harvard psychadelics club that were
trying to expand consciousness and understand the effects

612
00:29:15,936 --> 00:29:16,758
[deny_caballero]: of it and

613
00:29:16,715 --> 00:29:17,250
[pothead_parent]: hm

614
00:29:16,798 --> 00:29:22,513
[deny_caballero]: their label at the first bad people
no at the same time these you know

615
00:29:23,334 --> 00:29:29,164
[deny_caballero]: the same people were working in harvard
to understand the ability to expand your understanding

616
00:29:29,344 --> 00:29:33,711
[deny_caballero]: under cell simon and list you i
a doing the same thing but for nefarious

617
00:29:33,751 --> 00:29:34,152
[deny_caballero]: reasons

618
00:29:34,802 --> 00:29:34,823
[pothead_parent]: m

619
00:29:34,913 --> 00:29:35,714
[deny_caballero]: um and

620
00:29:35,691 --> 00:29:35,813
[pothead_parent]: ah

621
00:29:35,775 --> 00:29:40,682
[deny_caballero]: it's to me it's we have to
be able to step back and not see

622
00:29:40,762 --> 00:29:46,113
[deny_caballero]: them so much as party fund time
drugs but real tools real medicines to help

623
00:29:46,213 --> 00:29:48,056
[deny_caballero]: heal victims of trauma

624
00:29:48,623 --> 00:29:48,766
[pothead_parent]: yeah

625
00:29:48,748 --> 00:29:52,594
[deny_caballero]: same with m d m a the
studies and the informations out there

626
00:29:53,799 --> 00:29:53,820
[pothead_parent]: m

627
00:29:53,876 --> 00:29:57,943
[deny_caballero]: but we've turned it because we band
it because we outlaw it they become these

628
00:29:58,023 --> 00:30:04,001
[deny_caballero]: prolific party drugs they become these great
is to escape look i love scaping i

629
00:30:04,081 --> 00:30:06,929
[deny_caballero]: love i love the idea of being
able to sit back and just fucking relax

630
00:30:07,445 --> 00:30:07,486
[pothead_parent]: a

631
00:30:07,530 --> 00:30:08,573
[deny_caballero]: you know what i'd rather do

632
00:30:09,030 --> 00:30:09,900
[pothead_parent]: yeah

633
00:30:09,195 --> 00:30:12,099
[deny_caballero]: be able to calm down after a
bad day

634
00:30:12,389 --> 00:30:12,571
[pothead_parent]: yeah

635
00:30:12,740 --> 00:30:17,965
[deny_caballero]: or have a have a reaction to
anxiety that i can't calm down from just

636
00:30:18,005 --> 00:30:22,710
[deny_caballero]: happened the other day i don't want
it to stay and linger i know i

637
00:30:22,770 --> 00:30:25,494
[deny_caballero]: can stay and linger in it and
understand it and be able to hey this

638
00:30:25,534 --> 00:30:25,995
[deny_caballero]: will pass

639
00:30:26,460 --> 00:30:26,662
[pothead_parent]: oh

640
00:30:26,616 --> 00:30:31,612
[deny_caballero]: breathe through it but if i can
legally sit at home and say you know

641
00:30:31,632 --> 00:30:37,810
[deny_caballero]: what i'm going to smoke mariana not
to just fucking fuck around and blow my

642
00:30:37,850 --> 00:30:38,671
[deny_caballero]: day and

643
00:30:38,652 --> 00:30:38,793
[pothead_parent]: right

644
00:30:38,731 --> 00:30:42,816
[deny_caballero]: not do anything but to reset and
be able to say okay i'm cool i'm

645
00:30:42,896 --> 00:30:44,097
[deny_caballero]: good now awesome

646
00:30:44,700 --> 00:30:45,900
[pothead_parent]: oh

647
00:30:45,308 --> 00:30:48,795
[deny_caballero]: we don't offer that as a modality
we don't offer that as a tool we

648
00:30:48,995 --> 00:30:57,069
[deny_caballero]: offer nowadays there's huge loop hole but
a giant step and the things that you

649
00:30:57,149 --> 00:31:00,735
[deny_caballero]: have to do in order to get
t h c in order

650
00:31:00,684 --> 00:31:00,705
[pothead_parent]: m

651
00:31:00,855 --> 00:31:02,057
[deny_caballero]: to get just

652
00:31:02,430 --> 00:31:03,540
[pothead_parent]: yeah

653
00:31:03,100 --> 00:31:05,474
[deny_caballero]: minor just relief from pain

654
00:31:05,950 --> 00:31:06,554
[pothead_parent]: just a little bit

655
00:31:06,459 --> 00:31:07,305
[deny_caballero]: something that's natural

656
00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:09,441
[pothead_parent]: oil literally from a

657
00:31:09,448 --> 00:31:09,570
[deny_caballero]: yeah

658
00:31:09,501 --> 00:31:10,723
[pothead_parent]: plant it's like it's

659
00:31:10,928 --> 00:31:11,070
[deny_caballero]: yeah

660
00:31:11,385 --> 00:31:15,592
[pothead_parent]: one but it's you know that's again
like we know that's where we come in

661
00:31:15,652 --> 00:31:18,937
[pothead_parent]: i've got no problem telling people like
listening i've got off of pills i've been

662
00:31:18,977 --> 00:31:22,593
[pothead_parent]: hooked on and i used to drink
just smoke cigarettes which nobody ever talks about

663
00:31:22,633 --> 00:31:23,277
[pothead_parent]: smoking cigarettes

664
00:31:23,688 --> 00:31:23,889
[deny_caballero]: oh

665
00:31:24,270 --> 00:31:24,290
[pothead_parent]: i

666
00:31:24,311 --> 00:31:24,452
[deny_caballero]: yeah

667
00:31:24,370 --> 00:31:27,315
[pothead_parent]: will help you stop smoking cigarette so
we'll get it and actually but kind means

668
00:31:27,355 --> 00:31:28,457
[pothead_parent]: a whole different story

669
00:31:28,348 --> 00:31:28,931
[deny_caballero]: oh

670
00:31:30,620 --> 00:31:34,106
[pothead_parent]: and i know i think it's in
texas that they put up a law to

671
00:31:34,247 --> 00:31:38,396
[pothead_parent]: put like the only dispenser in because
in the va this couldn't be wrong but

672
00:31:38,416 --> 00:31:41,544
[pothead_parent]: i'm pretty sure i heard from a
couple of people at the mid conference there's

673
00:31:41,564 --> 00:31:46,444
[pothead_parent]: some bill that's going up to put
like only obviously dispenser

674
00:31:46,508 --> 00:31:46,650
[deny_caballero]: yeah

675
00:31:46,524 --> 00:31:51,553
[pothead_parent]: in the but like it sucks because
like these providers like you're talking about they

676
00:31:51,653 --> 00:31:55,419
[pothead_parent]: know canabis they know kedaman they know
silicide an you're not you're stupid if they

677
00:31:55,459 --> 00:31:59,008
[pothead_parent]: think that don't and they can't recommend
it to you even though they know it

678
00:31:59,068 --> 00:32:02,437
[pothead_parent]: may help you because this is what
they have to tell you you have to

679
00:32:02,438 --> 00:32:02,518
[deny_caballero]: or

680
00:32:02,478 --> 00:32:02,598
[pothead_parent]: take

681
00:32:02,638 --> 00:32:02,938
[deny_caballero]: worse

682
00:32:02,638 --> 00:32:02,738
[pothead_parent]: that

683
00:32:03,800 --> 00:32:09,229
[deny_caballero]: they see the money like for an
example katamin treatment has now become very popular

684
00:32:09,710 --> 00:32:09,950
[deny_caballero]: there's

685
00:32:10,175 --> 00:32:10,440
[pothead_parent]: gotch

686
00:32:10,231 --> 00:32:16,103
[deny_caballero]: two and i know there's a lot
more experts there but for my understanding there's

687
00:32:16,183 --> 00:32:21,739
[deny_caballero]: two two treatment options available for cademy
right now for chronic pain

688
00:32:22,402 --> 00:32:23,070
[pothead_parent]: hm

689
00:32:22,440 --> 00:32:26,747
[deny_caballero]: that you just cannot treat with anything
else and for trauma p t s d

690
00:32:27,528 --> 00:32:35,301
[deny_caballero]: both have very different protocols um but
because it's hot item and people in certain

691
00:32:35,970 --> 00:32:35,990
[pothead_parent]: m

692
00:32:36,163 --> 00:32:41,111
[deny_caballero]: military organizations think that it's a magic
cure all for p t s d and

693
00:32:41,171 --> 00:32:45,858
[deny_caballero]: a fast button to get guys right
back into the abusive world that is the

694
00:32:45,918 --> 00:32:50,543
[deny_caballero]: military and its hire operational escilence they
see it as a magic weapon they see

695
00:32:50,583 --> 00:32:56,773
[deny_caballero]: it as a magic wand so now
you're seeing people get treated with kdamine under

696
00:32:56,873 --> 00:33:04,414
[deny_caballero]: the protocol for chronic pain being told
it's for your p t s d which

697
00:33:04,290 --> 00:33:05,160
[pothead_parent]: yeah

698
00:33:04,494 --> 00:33:07,819
[deny_caballero]: they don't have psychiatric treatment available at
the same time they don't don't have a

699
00:33:07,839 --> 00:33:13,049
[deny_caballero]: psychologist there administering and talking through and
guiding them through the protocol no it's kid

700
00:33:13,269 --> 00:33:14,394
[deny_caballero]: you're good but

701
00:33:14,432 --> 00:33:14,574
[pothead_parent]: yeah

702
00:33:14,434 --> 00:33:21,813
[deny_caballero]: here's the thing in certain demographics soft
ktamine has been abused kenan has been a

703
00:33:21,873 --> 00:33:27,021
[deny_caballero]: drug a choice for numerous individuals why
because it's really available it's something that guys

704
00:33:27,081 --> 00:33:31,990
[deny_caballero]: get issued to them when we deploy
down in a combat because it's a tool

705
00:33:32,071 --> 00:33:33,756
[deny_caballero]: it's a medicine you can use in
trauma

706
00:33:34,413 --> 00:33:34,920
[pothead_parent]: hm

707
00:33:34,518 --> 00:33:40,341
[deny_caballero]: when somebody gets hit you can give
them kanemy but at the same time if

708
00:33:40,401 --> 00:33:44,132
[deny_caballero]: someone has a previous history of drug
addiction and they know the half kademene readily

709
00:33:44,152 --> 00:33:45,436
[deny_caballero]: available guess what

710
00:33:45,920 --> 00:33:46,061
[pothead_parent]: fuck

711
00:33:47,088 --> 00:33:49,810
[deny_caballero]: they're going to use kadmine down rates
and we've seen it it's

712
00:33:50,791 --> 00:33:51,197
[pothead_parent]: don't ship

713
00:33:51,131 --> 00:33:53,473
[deny_caballero]: wildly known around the

714
00:33:53,576 --> 00:33:54,464
[pothead_parent]: i saw it happen

715
00:33:54,294 --> 00:33:56,896
[deny_caballero]: are demographic that kademine is a drug
that people abuse

716
00:33:57,211 --> 00:33:57,412
[pothead_parent]: i say

717
00:33:57,517 --> 00:33:57,637
[deny_caballero]: so

718
00:33:57,554 --> 00:33:57,735
[pothead_parent]: wouldn't

719
00:33:58,618 --> 00:34:03,939
[deny_caballero]: yeah so now we have the potential
for hey i'm suffering for p t s

720
00:34:03,979 --> 00:34:07,044
[deny_caballero]: d i don't want to leave the
team i want to stay on cool man

721
00:34:07,104 --> 00:34:11,190
[deny_caballero]: we got this new treatment cademy now
you're making it okay and you make it

722
00:34:11,270 --> 00:34:13,654
[deny_caballero]: seem like just taking ketmeneis going to
get rid of ptst

723
00:34:14,160 --> 00:34:14,343
[pothead_parent]: right

724
00:34:14,315 --> 00:34:17,100
[deny_caballero]: no no no no it's not the
same going into a hole with your buddy

725
00:34:17,140 --> 00:34:20,766
[deny_caballero]: on the week and it's not the
same thing as taking ketamen to deal with

726
00:34:20,846 --> 00:34:22,409
[deny_caballero]: trauma and

727
00:34:22,404 --> 00:34:22,525
[pothead_parent]: what

728
00:34:22,630 --> 00:34:26,445
[deny_caballero]: as long as we start as long
as we're viewing kadomine as a magic wand

729
00:34:27,079 --> 00:34:31,732
[deny_caballero]: we have this pandours box that may
open up that's

730
00:34:31,654 --> 00:34:32,160
[pothead_parent]: hm

731
00:34:31,772 --> 00:34:36,200
[deny_caballero]: the only concern that i see but
i think it's a wonderful treatment when it's

732
00:34:36,340 --> 00:34:41,609
[deny_caballero]: used in the right way and the
patient understands that there is it's not a

733
00:34:41,649 --> 00:34:45,235
[deny_caballero]: magic bullet if you don't have the
therapy if you're not doing the therapy work

734
00:34:45,295 --> 00:34:48,701
[deny_caballero]: if you're not going in and doing
the actual work with d b t and

735
00:34:48,801 --> 00:34:54,732
[deny_caballero]: c v t m cognate behavial therapy
and elect babel therapy uh you're not going

736
00:34:54,772 --> 00:34:56,850
[deny_caballero]: to get the most bank for your
buck

737
00:34:57,262 --> 00:34:57,426
[pothead_parent]: right

738
00:34:57,418 --> 00:35:00,863
[deny_caballero]: because it's one to two weeks then
you're kind of feeling the effects were off

739
00:35:01,364 --> 00:35:02,346
[deny_caballero]: whereas if you

740
00:35:02,280 --> 00:35:02,300
[pothead_parent]: m

741
00:35:02,446 --> 00:35:05,892
[deny_caballero]: do the therapy and you get vulnerable
and you talk and you share and you

742
00:35:05,952 --> 00:35:09,418
[deny_caballero]: open up all those wounds and you
actually face them now you're goin to play

743
00:35:09,558 --> 00:35:14,163
[deny_caballero]: swerdanglian blocks will work now you're in
a place where wow like i'm starting to

744
00:35:14,183 --> 00:35:19,810
[deny_caballero]: de escalate i'm starting to feel like
i'm really back at a zero because that's

745
00:35:19,850 --> 00:35:24,019
[deny_caballero]: how that's what it was for me
i was bullshiting i was lying i wasn't

746
00:35:24,119 --> 00:35:29,240
[deny_caballero]: going to therapy and offering everything that
i was really going with i'm only gonna

747
00:35:29,260 --> 00:35:31,129
[deny_caballero]: give you this much trauma i'm only
going to talk about this

748
00:35:31,470 --> 00:35:31,794
[pothead_parent]: oh

749
00:35:31,974 --> 00:35:38,188
[deny_caballero]: and that only hurt me that only
hurt me and prolonged my treatment then i

750
00:35:38,709 --> 00:35:41,737
[deny_caballero]: had to go in that downward spiral
i had to hit rock bottom i had

751
00:35:41,777 --> 00:35:43,681
[deny_caballero]: to get to that point where nobody
wants to talk about were

752
00:35:43,681 --> 00:35:43,701
[pothead_parent]: a

753
00:35:43,721 --> 00:35:45,826
[deny_caballero]: like hey you know what i'm going
to take my life

754
00:35:47,320 --> 00:35:47,380
[pothead_parent]: and

755
00:35:47,368 --> 00:35:47,448
[deny_caballero]: and

756
00:35:47,420 --> 00:35:47,501
[pothead_parent]: then

757
00:35:47,488 --> 00:35:47,588
[deny_caballero]: then

758
00:35:47,541 --> 00:35:47,701
[pothead_parent]: they're

759
00:35:47,649 --> 00:35:47,669
[deny_caballero]: i

760
00:35:47,742 --> 00:35:47,842
[pothead_parent]: like

761
00:35:47,749 --> 00:35:48,733
[deny_caballero]: get to a treatment center

762
00:35:49,448 --> 00:35:50,553
[pothead_parent]: i wonder why they killed themselves

763
00:35:51,118 --> 00:35:54,424
[deny_caballero]: then you get to a treatment center
you have no no way to run then

764
00:35:54,504 --> 00:35:57,990
[deny_caballero]: you really have to tell the truth
and that's when the healing begins when i

765
00:35:58,110 --> 00:36:01,796
[deny_caballero]: finally was able to open up and
say you know this is everything here's here's

766
00:36:01,856 --> 00:36:06,024
[deny_caballero]: everything i'm holding on let's king dissect
it because i didn't want to go through

767
00:36:06,064 --> 00:36:12,624
[deny_caballero]: that anymore finally surrendered and said you
know what i trust you you're here because

768
00:36:12,644 --> 00:36:15,072
[deny_caballero]: you want to help me i'm here
because i want to get better because i

769
00:36:15,092 --> 00:36:16,276
[deny_caballero]: don't want to leave my wife anymore

770
00:36:16,680 --> 00:36:16,700
[pothead_parent]: m

771
00:36:16,858 --> 00:36:21,764
[deny_caballero]: i don't want to prioritize anything else
above my health right now this is it

772
00:36:21,824 --> 00:36:23,807
[deny_caballero]: this is my one shot i don't
want to do this again

773
00:36:25,150 --> 00:36:30,316
[pothead_parent]: it's funny like you say that so
we we did ketiming under doctor supervision probably

774
00:36:30,777 --> 00:36:31,237
[pothead_parent]: three months ago

775
00:36:32,228 --> 00:36:32,514
[deny_caballero]: hell yeah

776
00:36:33,220 --> 00:36:36,723
[pothead_parent]: it was i mean complete a hole
like they played a t v i was

777
00:36:36,763 --> 00:36:38,325
[pothead_parent]: swimming with fucking turtles for like an
hour

778
00:36:38,222 --> 00:36:38,243
[deny_caballero]: i

779
00:36:38,365 --> 00:36:38,885
[pothead_parent]: and a half there

780
00:36:38,818 --> 00:36:39,119
[deny_caballero]: oh

781
00:36:38,905 --> 00:36:41,928
[pothead_parent]: was lights on the ceiling like unless
you've done it it's very hard

782
00:36:41,811 --> 00:36:41,992
[deny_caballero]: yeah

783
00:36:41,948 --> 00:36:47,035
[pothead_parent]: to explain but like mental state to
even just go there took me a long

784
00:36:47,095 --> 00:36:49,700
[pothead_parent]: time to even say okay i don't
know what the fuck i'm going to run

785
00:36:49,780 --> 00:36:52,745
[pothead_parent]: into with this i don't know if
i'm gonna be talking to jesus i don't

786
00:36:52,785 --> 00:36:54,989
[pothead_parent]: know if i'm going to be sleeping
i don't know i don't know

787
00:36:55,228 --> 00:36:55,349
[deny_caballero]: yeah

788
00:36:55,229 --> 00:36:58,897
[pothead_parent]: it was very vulnerable day for like
moment for you

789
00:36:59,198 --> 00:36:59,362
[deny_caballero]: yeah

790
00:36:59,599 --> 00:37:02,786
[pothead_parent]: i walked in there i'm like okay
this might be pandours back like you're saying

791
00:37:02,846 --> 00:37:09,182
[pothead_parent]: something is coming out the experience in
the moment i'm not contradictin anything you're saying

792
00:37:09,202 --> 00:37:13,086
[pothead_parent]: you'll ee what i mean but like
in the moment that experience was fucking phenomenal

793
00:37:13,126 --> 00:37:13,627
[pothead_parent]: because like my

794
00:37:13,608 --> 00:37:13,711
[deny_caballero]: yeah

795
00:37:13,727 --> 00:37:17,674
[pothead_parent]: brain no no no it doesn't stop
it's the first time my brain ever shut

796
00:37:17,855 --> 00:37:18,857
[pothead_parent]: off when i mean

797
00:37:18,868 --> 00:37:18,989
[deny_caballero]: yeah

798
00:37:18,917 --> 00:37:23,983
[pothead_parent]: shut up and her care think nothing
dude and i remember you know that feeling

799
00:37:24,043 --> 00:37:26,445
[pothead_parent]: of an anxiety attack coming here like
oh my god gonna pass out i'm going

800
00:37:26,465 --> 00:37:29,288
[pothead_parent]: to pass out while i'm in a
key hole or ucking kidding me and i'm

801
00:37:29,348 --> 00:37:32,464
[pothead_parent]: going okay here we go and all
of a sudden feeling wasn't there and i

802
00:37:32,525 --> 00:37:37,230
[pothead_parent]: was like what the fuck is going
on here remember telling myself i'm like i

803
00:37:37,310 --> 00:37:40,595
[pothead_parent]: can finally just not think if and
i just sat there and just you know

804
00:37:40,635 --> 00:37:44,602
[pothead_parent]: went through illotland but the doctor comes
in every ten minutes

805
00:37:45,008 --> 00:37:45,152
[deny_caballero]: yeah

806
00:37:45,023 --> 00:37:49,690
[pothead_parent]: checks make sure you're okay i mean
i don't remember coming in half time but

807
00:37:49,731 --> 00:37:49,851
[pothead_parent]: they

808
00:37:49,858 --> 00:37:50,818
[deny_caballero]: yeah

809
00:37:49,911 --> 00:37:51,694
[pothead_parent]: come in and they keep eye on
you to make sure that

810
00:37:51,661 --> 00:37:51,784
[deny_caballero]: ah

811
00:37:51,714 --> 00:37:55,493
[pothead_parent]: everything is good if something is wrong
they're right there but and then that therapy

812
00:37:55,633 --> 00:37:57,983
[pothead_parent]: like you're saying supose to be like
two weeks every two days or they kind

813
00:37:58,003 --> 00:37:58,967
[pothead_parent]: of just microdoseou

814
00:37:59,598 --> 00:37:59,718
[deny_caballero]: yeah

815
00:38:00,122 --> 00:38:04,600
[pothead_parent]: i'm telling like within a week or
the next day for a week i felt

816
00:38:04,760 --> 00:38:08,366
[pothead_parent]: clear i felt great but i didn't
go back because of the cost of it

817
00:38:09,108 --> 00:38:09,208
[pothead_parent]: and

818
00:38:09,219 --> 00:38:09,383
[deny_caballero]: yeah

819
00:38:09,368 --> 00:38:13,295
[pothead_parent]: you feel it come right back but
you're saying if it's like assisted where you're

820
00:38:13,355 --> 00:38:15,939
[pothead_parent]: like hey there's a therapist in here
and like what the fun is going on

821
00:38:15,999 --> 00:38:19,470
[pothead_parent]: right that could be very beneficial means
legalize

822
00:38:19,158 --> 00:38:19,302
[deny_caballero]: yeah

823
00:38:19,550 --> 00:38:21,336
[pothead_parent]: the clinics in las vegas that you
can

824
00:38:21,378 --> 00:38:21,498
[deny_caballero]: yeah

825
00:38:21,456 --> 00:38:21,737
[pothead_parent]: literally

826
00:38:21,538 --> 00:38:24,203
[deny_caballero]: we got some over here too and
it's that's and

827
00:38:24,159 --> 00:38:24,180
[pothead_parent]: m

828
00:38:24,283 --> 00:38:27,568
[deny_caballero]: a lot of them once you like
if you're get you're inquisitive you want to

829
00:38:27,628 --> 00:38:30,213
[deny_caballero]: find out more and you click on
there and i'll stay right there like hey

830
00:38:30,754 --> 00:38:34,708
[deny_caballero]: um we will take you you will
everything we can but we need to see

831
00:38:34,748 --> 00:38:40,307
[deny_caballero]: that you've gone to see psychologists therapist
that they recommend it because you don't know

832
00:38:40,548 --> 00:38:45,128
[deny_caballero]: you don't know what's going to happen
if you look at the studies there's a

833
00:38:45,168 --> 00:38:50,797
[deny_caballero]: lot of people that have never had
that disassociative experience and when they do a

834
00:38:50,837 --> 00:38:53,662
[deny_caballero]: lot of the controls a lot of
people were like you know that i'm done

835
00:38:54,043 --> 00:38:56,707
[deny_caballero]: one i don't want to do this
any more i don't like this associative state

836
00:38:56,767 --> 00:38:59,777
[deny_caballero]: like that's a lot for people and
if you don't know wat your geting yourself

837
00:38:59,878 --> 00:39:02,326
[deny_caballero]: into it can be really really bad

838
00:39:06,503 --> 00:39:08,346
[deny_caballero]: that's a prime example why we

839
00:39:08,454 --> 00:39:08,836
[pothead_parent]: sorry

840
00:39:08,546 --> 00:39:12,974
[deny_caballero]: all have to be able no you're
good that's that's a prime example of why

841
00:39:13,074 --> 00:39:16,564
[deny_caballero]: you want to make sure you take
care of yourself yourself first because if you

842
00:39:16,604 --> 00:39:20,354
[deny_caballero]: don't put yourself first how can you
put your family ahead when you need to

843
00:39:21,547 --> 00:39:21,687
[pothead_parent]: yeah

844
00:39:21,678 --> 00:39:25,902
[deny_caballero]: this is this is the dilemma that
we all have i want to i want

845
00:39:25,942 --> 00:39:28,684
[deny_caballero]: to get better but i'm going to
do it for my wife no no no

846
00:39:29,165 --> 00:39:30,526
[deny_caballero]: you got to do it for you
you're gonna

847
00:39:30,534 --> 00:39:30,719
[pothead_parent]: right

848
00:39:30,546 --> 00:39:33,591
[deny_caballero]: be able to look yourself in the
mirror i wasn't able to do that for

849
00:39:33,631 --> 00:39:34,193
[deny_caballero]: a long time

850
00:39:34,540 --> 00:39:34,702
[pothead_parent]: right

851
00:39:34,895 --> 00:39:38,305
[deny_caballero]: if i looked myself in the mirror
is real quick to shave wash i hated

852
00:39:38,345 --> 00:39:42,462
[deny_caballero]: myself i hated myself for everything that
i been through hated myself for the things

853
00:39:42,763 --> 00:39:46,413
[deny_caballero]: in my past i didn't like who
i saw i wanted to just hurry up

854
00:39:46,433 --> 00:39:46,654
[deny_caballero]: and go

855
00:39:47,325 --> 00:39:47,447
[pothead_parent]: yeah

856
00:39:48,228 --> 00:39:52,339
[deny_caballero]: and the doctor makes you do those
drills like no there's nothing wrong with you

857
00:39:52,419 --> 00:39:57,707
[deny_caballero]: loki look at you understand that you
are mind body spirit that's all you have

858
00:39:59,931 --> 00:40:00,052
[pothead_parent]: we've

859
00:40:00,088 --> 00:40:00,148
[deny_caballero]: in

860
00:40:00,093 --> 00:40:00,315
[pothead_parent]: just been

861
00:40:00,208 --> 00:40:02,671
[deny_caballero]: order for you to be the best
version yourself you

862
00:40:02,670 --> 00:40:03,420
[pothead_parent]: yeah

863
00:40:02,791 --> 00:40:03,872
[deny_caballero]: kind of put yourself first

864
00:40:04,540 --> 00:40:04,641
[pothead_parent]: yeah

865
00:40:04,693 --> 00:40:06,836
[deny_caballero]: because your family depends on it your
kids

866
00:40:06,612 --> 00:40:07,260
[pothead_parent]: oh

867
00:40:06,976 --> 00:40:12,481
[deny_caballero]: everybody i know it's a very very
confusing time everybody has their own their own

868
00:40:12,541 --> 00:40:15,684
[deny_caballero]: ideas on being a parent and having
kids but i feel that one of the

869
00:40:15,724 --> 00:40:16,024
[deny_caballero]: greatest

870
00:40:15,999 --> 00:40:16,020
[pothead_parent]: m

871
00:40:16,064 --> 00:40:18,867
[deny_caballero]: callings in life is to be able
to have a child have your own kid

872
00:40:19,668 --> 00:40:21,115
[deny_caballero]: able to give them everything you never
had

873
00:40:21,640 --> 00:40:24,262
[pothead_parent]: it's the best thing i've ever had
is it the most stressful i've ever been

874
00:40:24,742 --> 00:40:25,963
[pothead_parent]: absolutely but again

875
00:40:25,869 --> 00:40:25,992
[deny_caballero]: yeah

876
00:40:26,584 --> 00:40:29,967
[pothead_parent]: i mean wouldn't change it for the
world it's just we have our whole long

877
00:40:30,047 --> 00:40:34,592
[pothead_parent]: story with them but it's like you're
saying a few if i was the pill

878
00:40:34,652 --> 00:40:38,138
[pothead_parent]: head and alcohol alcoholic i was years
ago ahead

879
00:40:37,948 --> 00:40:38,608
[deny_caballero]: yeah

880
00:40:38,218 --> 00:40:40,943
[pothead_parent]: kids i would have been the shittiest
father in the world completely i could be

881
00:40:41,003 --> 00:40:41,804
[pothead_parent]: there but i'm not there

882
00:40:42,188 --> 00:40:42,330
[deny_caballero]: yeah

883
00:40:42,626 --> 00:40:46,375
[pothead_parent]: all that i've stepped back done my
research in son gone through the ten years

884
00:40:46,436 --> 00:40:50,714
[pothead_parent]: of the monkey fuck games with that
i don't want to be out in a

885
00:40:50,875 --> 00:40:51,015
[pothead_parent]: more

886
00:40:52,136 --> 00:40:52,276
[deny_caballero]: yeah

887
00:40:52,260 --> 00:40:56,807
[pothead_parent]: u cannabis as needed to help me
and c b d c b d s

888
00:40:56,848 --> 00:40:59,232
[pothead_parent]: aculwrigot started that's federally legal by the
way so everybody

889
00:40:59,148 --> 00:40:59,269
[deny_caballero]: yeah

890
00:40:59,272 --> 00:41:02,637
[pothead_parent]: that wants to kind of dabble in
this try c b d you're not going

891
00:41:02,677 --> 00:41:06,043
[pothead_parent]: to get high you might get extreme
tired which is great take

892
00:41:06,034 --> 00:41:06,177
[deny_caballero]: yeah

893
00:41:06,083 --> 00:41:09,469
[pothead_parent]: it at night but it gives you
all of the medicinal benefits without the high

894
00:41:09,509 --> 00:41:13,656
[pothead_parent]: of it but you're going to see
th or t c and we n canada

895
00:41:14,036 --> 00:41:17,324
[pothead_parent]: legal they don't have a choice it's
coming and the day that it's in the

896
00:41:17,364 --> 00:41:20,073
[pothead_parent]: v as will be best day

897
00:41:20,081 --> 00:41:20,241
[deny_caballero]: yeah

898
00:41:20,094 --> 00:41:21,037
[pothead_parent]: in the world because it's going

899
00:41:21,063 --> 00:41:21,083
[deny_caballero]: i

900
00:41:21,077 --> 00:41:21,318
[pothead_parent]: to stay

901
00:41:21,203 --> 00:41:22,385
[deny_caballero]: am i am very hopeful

902
00:41:22,601 --> 00:41:22,621
[pothead_parent]: i

903
00:41:23,708 --> 00:41:24,450
[deny_caballero]: i cannot wait

904
00:41:24,810 --> 00:41:25,055
[pothead_parent]: yeah

905
00:41:24,972 --> 00:41:25,594
[deny_caballero]: because i know

906
00:41:26,604 --> 00:41:26,747
[pothead_parent]: head

907
00:41:27,428 --> 00:41:31,474
[deny_caballero]: our veterans and even our active duty
service members i was very ignorant

908
00:41:31,770 --> 00:41:31,991
[pothead_parent]: yeah

909
00:41:31,815 --> 00:41:33,097
[deny_caballero]: of the addiction rate

910
00:41:33,892 --> 00:41:33,993
[pothead_parent]: just

911
00:41:34,212 --> 00:41:35,343
[deny_caballero]: within our service i didn't

912
00:41:35,570 --> 00:41:37,415
[pothead_parent]: popping pills in formation literally

913
00:41:37,338 --> 00:41:37,438
[deny_caballero]: oh

914
00:41:37,495 --> 00:41:37,937
[pothead_parent]: i can have

915
00:41:37,819 --> 00:41:37,999
[deny_caballero]: that's

916
00:41:37,997 --> 00:41:38,077
[pothead_parent]: my

917
00:41:38,059 --> 00:41:38,540
[deny_caballero]: one of the things

918
00:41:39,211 --> 00:41:39,494
[pothead_parent]: let's go

919
00:41:39,782 --> 00:41:45,832
[deny_caballero]: i'm having to talk to people about
hey addiction is addiction

920
00:41:46,220 --> 00:41:46,382
[pothead_parent]: yeah

921
00:41:46,394 --> 00:41:47,879
[deny_caballero]: abusing drugs abusing drugs

922
00:41:48,420 --> 00:41:48,440
[pothead_parent]: m

923
00:41:48,723 --> 00:41:52,902
[deny_caballero]: you know you don't you shouldn't look
at your medication and say well i can

924
00:41:52,983 --> 00:41:56,346
[deny_caballero]: just i'm not addicted to it anymore
but i'm still going o take it like

925
00:41:57,358 --> 00:41:57,779
[deny_caballero]: no brother

926
00:41:58,017 --> 00:41:58,158
[pothead_parent]: in a

927
00:41:58,139 --> 00:41:58,320
[deny_caballero]: like

928
00:41:58,198 --> 00:41:58,380
[pothead_parent]: diction

929
00:41:59,001 --> 00:42:00,745
[deny_caballero]: you're abusing your medication you

930
00:42:00,750 --> 00:42:01,440
[pothead_parent]: yeah

931
00:42:00,805 --> 00:42:04,333
[deny_caballero]: need to talk to your doctor to
switch from that medication to something else because

932
00:42:04,834 --> 00:42:05,896
[deny_caballero]: you're addicted to it

933
00:42:06,452 --> 00:42:07,080
[pothead_parent]: hm

934
00:42:06,901 --> 00:42:11,341
[deny_caballero]: it has become an addiction it was
okay for you at one point it was

935
00:42:11,661 --> 00:42:16,454
[deny_caballero]: it was just prescribed to you now
you're abusing your drugs go see your doctor

936
00:42:17,318 --> 00:42:18,784
[deny_caballero]: go in and seek help

937
00:42:19,260 --> 00:42:20,661
[pothead_parent]: yea the problem

938
00:42:20,639 --> 00:42:20,741
[deny_caballero]: it's

939
00:42:20,701 --> 00:42:20,721
[pothead_parent]: i

940
00:42:20,781 --> 00:42:20,801
[deny_caballero]: a

941
00:42:20,801 --> 00:42:20,841
[pothead_parent]: re

942
00:42:20,903 --> 00:42:21,410
[deny_caballero]: hard thing

943
00:42:21,502 --> 00:42:24,886
[pothead_parent]: t is exactly that i had a
bottle of lore tabs or whatever at the

944
00:42:24,927 --> 00:42:29,122
[pothead_parent]: time i was never privy to pills
really i would take a couple and one

945
00:42:29,223 --> 00:42:33,029
[pothead_parent]: two three four and then the bottle
is going quick i'm calling for refills i'm

946
00:42:33,089 --> 00:42:36,775
[pothead_parent]: not processing this in my brain and
then you go back to that doctor and

947
00:42:36,795 --> 00:42:38,658
[pothead_parent]: tell him hey do come out and
you re feel like oh i can't give

948
00:42:38,698 --> 00:42:41,207
[pothead_parent]: any more you you're hooked at this
point you're hooked

949
00:42:40,908 --> 00:42:41,052
[deny_caballero]: yeah

950
00:42:41,870 --> 00:42:44,975
[pothead_parent]: and then i go okay well i'm
on a go to a different doctor as

951
00:42:45,015 --> 00:42:48,461
[pothead_parent]: one to three doctors at one time
all over the place and getting scripts

952
00:42:48,108 --> 00:42:48,230
[deny_caballero]: yeah

953
00:42:49,102 --> 00:42:51,646
[pothead_parent]: and then it got to the point
where the lady gave me an expired script

954
00:42:51,726 --> 00:42:55,117
[pothead_parent]: on accident i went to wegmans they
thought i was trying to like fill

955
00:42:55,198 --> 00:42:55,398
[deny_caballero]: yeah

956
00:42:55,339 --> 00:42:56,646
[pothead_parent]: a stolen script that i was like

957
00:42:56,604 --> 00:42:56,765
[deny_caballero]: man

958
00:42:57,300 --> 00:43:00,505
[pothead_parent]: what the fuck am i doing right
now like i'm a drug edict this is

959
00:43:00,585 --> 00:43:01,587
[pothead_parent]: insane i was

960
00:43:01,618 --> 00:43:01,760
[deny_caballero]: yeah

961
00:43:01,767 --> 00:43:06,074
[pothead_parent]: buying them from people i was dude
literally i was saying i would have i

962
00:43:06,134 --> 00:43:09,501
[pothead_parent]: remember one time i had a boot
of mine get his teeth pulled found out

963
00:43:09,521 --> 00:43:11,227
[pothead_parent]: he had fucking tabs or or pine
or whatever

964
00:43:11,068 --> 00:43:11,088
[deny_caballero]: m

965
00:43:11,307 --> 00:43:13,996
[pothead_parent]: am bro i was hammering of information

966
00:43:14,508 --> 00:43:14,650
[deny_caballero]: yeah

967
00:43:15,160 --> 00:43:18,647
[pothead_parent]: it is what it is like it's
just it's it's shite like and i understand

968
00:43:18,827 --> 00:43:23,237
[pothead_parent]: why they don't want you using cannabis
while you're on active duty i get it

969
00:43:24,010 --> 00:43:26,395
[pothead_parent]: because you're just you're going to nderstand
the effects of it and how good it

970
00:43:26,436 --> 00:43:30,466
[pothead_parent]: is but you're not going to be
that triple type a animal killer that

971
00:43:30,428 --> 00:43:30,569
[deny_caballero]: yep

972
00:43:30,486 --> 00:43:35,156
[pothead_parent]: they want you to be but they
should have something where if you enter like

973
00:43:35,176 --> 00:43:38,824
[pothead_parent]: you know you said hey i got
a fucking problem i need help here okay

974
00:43:38,965 --> 00:43:44,037
[pothead_parent]: you're on a two week automatic whatever
they want to call it you use canabas

975
00:43:44,077 --> 00:43:46,203
[pothead_parent]: for the first two days and talk
about it for the rest and then you

976
00:43:46,263 --> 00:43:47,948
[pothead_parent]: go back in the field or something
there's got to be

977
00:43:48,288 --> 00:43:48,468
[deny_caballero]: yeah

978
00:43:49,042 --> 00:43:49,243
[pothead_parent]: billie

979
00:43:49,088 --> 00:43:52,531
[deny_caballero]: i mean you look at look at
countries like canada and obviously our neighbors o

980
00:43:52,692 --> 00:43:55,895
[deny_caballero]: north have their own issues and the
on things that we can pick apart but

981
00:43:55,935 --> 00:43:57,776
[deny_caballero]: the one thing i did see that
made

982
00:43:57,661 --> 00:43:57,762
[pothead_parent]: no

983
00:43:57,816 --> 00:44:02,656
[deny_caballero]: sense to me is they allow mariana
use for their service service members

984
00:44:02,563 --> 00:44:03,045
[pothead_parent]: don't know that

985
00:44:03,648 --> 00:44:03,788
[deny_caballero]: yeah

986
00:44:04,520 --> 00:44:04,740
[pothead_parent]: actually

987
00:44:04,572 --> 00:44:04,653
[deny_caballero]: so

988
00:44:04,760 --> 00:44:06,363
[pothead_parent]: met a lot of them that kind
of makes sense but

989
00:44:06,860 --> 00:44:10,558
[deny_caballero]: yeah

990
00:44:08,226 --> 00:44:10,770
[pothead_parent]: like from new york so we used
to trading with the guys up in canada

991
00:44:10,850 --> 00:44:10,991
[pothead_parent]: dude

992
00:44:11,332 --> 00:44:11,493
[deny_caballero]: yeah

993
00:44:11,852 --> 00:44:13,515
[pothead_parent]: one of the ship they did oh
my

994
00:44:13,438 --> 00:44:14,248
[deny_caballero]: yeah

995
00:44:13,595 --> 00:44:14,316
[pothead_parent]: god i don't even want

996
00:44:14,350 --> 00:44:14,412
[deny_caballero]: it

997
00:44:14,356 --> 00:44:16,563
[pothead_parent]: to say that here because i don't
want the oh

998
00:44:16,591 --> 00:44:16,671
[deny_caballero]: but

999
00:44:16,624 --> 00:44:16,705
[pothead_parent]: my

1000
00:44:16,711 --> 00:44:16,791
[deny_caballero]: the

1001
00:44:16,787 --> 00:44:17,011
[pothead_parent]: god

1002
00:44:16,811 --> 00:44:19,979
[deny_caballero]: thing that the thing that i appreciate
and i look at it and it makes

1003
00:44:20,039 --> 00:44:23,306
[deny_caballero]: sense is it's the same regulations we
have against

1004
00:44:23,550 --> 00:44:23,852
[pothead_parent]: oh

1005
00:44:24,059 --> 00:44:24,967
[deny_caballero]: alcohol and the military

1006
00:44:25,270 --> 00:44:25,430
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1007
00:44:25,391 --> 00:44:25,411
[deny_caballero]: a

1008
00:44:26,494 --> 00:44:26,916
[pothead_parent]: don't trio

1009
00:44:26,698 --> 00:44:30,483
[deny_caballero]: can't do it before with forty ight
hours of doing for again like free fall

1010
00:44:30,623 --> 00:44:32,005
[deny_caballero]: or dive or anything like that

1011
00:44:32,130 --> 00:44:32,910
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1012
00:44:32,385 --> 00:44:35,858
[deny_caballero]: that makes sense to me what doesn't
make sense to me is how we

1013
00:44:36,171 --> 00:44:36,372
[pothead_parent]: oh

1014
00:44:37,978 --> 00:44:40,264
[deny_caballero]: make it culturally available

1015
00:44:39,960 --> 00:44:39,980
[pothead_parent]: m

1016
00:44:40,325 --> 00:44:45,826
[deny_caballero]: in such a we have such a
love affair with alcohol we make it known

1017
00:44:45,906 --> 00:44:47,369
[deny_caballero]: that it's it's a right of passage

1018
00:44:47,850 --> 00:44:48,510
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1019
00:44:47,870 --> 00:44:50,976
[deny_caballero]: there's there's a lot of things you
do on a team that it's like hey

1020
00:44:51,036 --> 00:44:53,371
[deny_caballero]: man past the jack around like or

1021
00:44:53,681 --> 00:44:53,863
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1022
00:44:53,732 --> 00:44:57,801
[deny_caballero]: past the reeking past whatever call you
want like hey we're celebrating we had a

1023
00:44:57,981 --> 00:45:00,106
[deny_caballero]: rough day rough train up let's all
drink

1024
00:45:00,703 --> 00:45:01,230
[pothead_parent]: hm

1025
00:45:02,180 --> 00:45:03,377
[deny_caballero]: hey i get it

1026
00:45:04,170 --> 00:45:05,370
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1027
00:45:04,528 --> 00:45:07,615
[deny_caballero]: that's the thing that's been associated with
being able to relax and cool back and

1028
00:45:07,695 --> 00:45:09,078
[deny_caballero]: sit back but you

1029
00:45:09,142 --> 00:45:09,223
[pothead_parent]: ah

1030
00:45:09,179 --> 00:45:15,891
[deny_caballero]: realize you normalized it amongst your troops
that relaxation means drinking that celebration

1031
00:45:15,535 --> 00:45:15,555
[pothead_parent]: m

1032
00:45:15,951 --> 00:45:20,457
[deny_caballero]: means drinking that having a rough day
culminates with drinking

1033
00:45:21,631 --> 00:45:21,897
[pothead_parent]: everything

1034
00:45:21,848 --> 00:45:25,414
[deny_caballero]: you have no right to get mad
at them or persecute them or or chapter

1035
00:45:25,454 --> 00:45:29,140
[deny_caballero]: them when they go home after a
stressful deployment and all they have to cope

1036
00:45:29,180 --> 00:45:32,946
[deny_caballero]: with is alcohol and they get a
d u i no i'm sorry you you

1037
00:45:33,046 --> 00:45:36,212
[deny_caballero]: bought that ticket you punched it you
bought it you take care of the guy

1038
00:45:36,852 --> 00:45:37,440
[pothead_parent]: hm

1039
00:45:37,373 --> 00:45:39,497
[deny_caballero]: and i hate it because a lot
of guys are like well i don't have

1040
00:45:39,537 --> 00:45:43,103
[deny_caballero]: a problem with drinking while you're bending
it and no i'm not i'm not trying

1041
00:45:43,203 --> 00:45:46,972
[deny_caballero]: to be the party that the bus
kill in and you're in your party but

1042
00:45:47,032 --> 00:45:51,791
[deny_caballero]: i am saying as there was a
time where i thought alcohol was what made

1043
00:45:51,831 --> 00:45:53,433
[deny_caballero]: me a cool guy and a cool
man

1044
00:45:53,972 --> 00:45:54,480
[pothead_parent]: hm

1045
00:45:54,094 --> 00:45:59,941
[deny_caballero]: and cool green bore no it's not
we don't need it there's absolutely no benefit

1046
00:46:00,001 --> 00:46:01,403
[deny_caballero]: to it there's absolutely nothing

1047
00:46:01,932 --> 00:46:02,076
[pothead_parent]: what

1048
00:46:02,123 --> 00:46:04,887
[deny_caballero]: that you can say that maximizes your
performance at work

1049
00:46:05,634 --> 00:46:06,180
[pothead_parent]: hm

1050
00:46:05,658 --> 00:46:07,823
[deny_caballero]: get it you're having a celebration

1051
00:46:07,413 --> 00:46:07,495
[pothead_parent]: no

1052
00:46:07,883 --> 00:46:11,199
[deny_caballero]: at home cool thick a little bi
if you like you don't have to go

1053
00:46:11,259 --> 00:46:15,143
[deny_caballero]: drink out the bar you don't have
to make it part of your social interaction

1054
00:46:15,344 --> 00:46:15,804
[deny_caballero]: it's not

1055
00:46:15,810 --> 00:46:16,872
[pothead_parent]: problems

1056
00:46:15,884 --> 00:46:16,425
[deny_caballero]: that great

1057
00:46:16,892 --> 00:46:18,937
[pothead_parent]: were either or out for drinking i
don't know you ever been

1058
00:46:18,889 --> 00:46:18,970
[deny_caballero]: ah

1059
00:46:18,957 --> 00:46:19,638
[pothead_parent]: to a marine core ball

1060
00:46:20,741 --> 00:46:27,424
[deny_caballero]: o trust me it was every friday
every friday and saturday it was here at

1061
00:46:27,464 --> 00:46:30,209
[deny_caballero]: the local bars it was like hey
what are we doing we're drinking

1062
00:46:30,570 --> 00:46:31,230
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1063
00:46:30,570 --> 00:46:33,615
[deny_caballero]: we're going to the beach we're going
to drink we're going you know i can

1064
00:46:33,655 --> 00:46:36,008
[deny_caballero]: name all the bars that we used
to go to um

1065
00:46:35,906 --> 00:46:36,360
[pothead_parent]: hm

1066
00:46:36,577 --> 00:46:40,211
[deny_caballero]: m but when i look back on
it it's like man how much money how

1067
00:46:40,231 --> 00:46:40,975
[deny_caballero]: much weight how much

1068
00:46:41,330 --> 00:46:41,472
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1069
00:46:42,018 --> 00:46:45,628
[deny_caballero]: many embarrassing friging next mornings that i
have when i woke up and like didn't

1070
00:46:45,648 --> 00:46:52,488
[deny_caballero]: now whet you know i was and
it's like dude i didn't have thankfully when

1071
00:46:52,528 --> 00:46:56,655
[deny_caballero]: i was at my worst i realized
that alcohol could be a very comforting thing

1072
00:46:56,755 --> 00:46:57,837
[deny_caballero]: and i didn't use it

1073
00:46:58,370 --> 00:46:59,070
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1074
00:46:58,438 --> 00:47:00,545
[deny_caballero]: that's not the same story for a
lot of my friends

1075
00:47:00,950 --> 00:47:01,031
[pothead_parent]: no

1076
00:47:01,858 --> 00:47:01,998
[deny_caballero]: it's

1077
00:47:01,971 --> 00:47:02,072
[pothead_parent]: just

1078
00:47:02,058 --> 00:47:02,198
[deny_caballero]: not

1079
00:47:02,153 --> 00:47:02,254
[pothead_parent]: now

1080
00:47:02,239 --> 00:47:04,764
[deny_caballero]: the same story for a lot of
the guys that i see that are still

1081
00:47:04,865 --> 00:47:05,887
[deny_caballero]: being destroyed by it

1082
00:47:06,350 --> 00:47:06,474
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1083
00:47:06,468 --> 00:47:10,658
[deny_caballero]: guys that failed to see that hey
you're on your fourth marriage your

1084
00:47:10,563 --> 00:47:10,685
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1085
00:47:10,719 --> 00:47:15,303
[deny_caballero]: fourth marriage and the main the main
thing that you can see out of all

1086
00:47:15,343 --> 00:47:17,627
[deny_caballero]: these relationships is your relationship with alcohol

1087
00:47:18,393 --> 00:47:18,433
[pothead_parent]: h

1088
00:47:18,739 --> 00:47:18,964
[deny_caballero]: stop

1089
00:47:19,389 --> 00:47:19,751
[pothead_parent]: m yep

1090
00:47:19,708 --> 00:47:22,075
[deny_caballero]: no no no it's just drink everybody
drinks

1091
00:47:23,450 --> 00:47:25,138
[pothead_parent]: that's what's drill in our head like
you're saying it's just

1092
00:47:25,428 --> 00:47:25,551
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1093
00:47:25,479 --> 00:47:29,172
[pothead_parent]: the normal and i think they're going
to have to kind of correlates though i

1094
00:47:29,212 --> 00:47:32,337
[pothead_parent]: mean again canabus is going to be
legal whether they like it or not it's

1095
00:47:32,398 --> 00:47:38,672
[pothead_parent]: happening the very near future that the
drinking i think they pushed the pills they

1096
00:47:38,732 --> 00:47:41,476
[pothead_parent]: pushed the drink or not pushed it
they just that was it they didn't care

1097
00:47:41,358 --> 00:47:41,502
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1098
00:47:41,576 --> 00:47:46,742
[pothead_parent]: because there was always people to join
the military bro now nobody signing up they

1099
00:47:46,822 --> 00:47:48,165
[pothead_parent]: have issues recruiting people

1100
00:47:48,648 --> 00:47:48,709
[deny_caballero]: oh

1101
00:47:48,666 --> 00:47:48,686
[pothead_parent]: i

1102
00:47:48,749 --> 00:47:48,891
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1103
00:47:48,786 --> 00:47:52,993
[pothead_parent]: had you better change that ship or
do you think my kids want to join

1104
00:47:53,053 --> 00:47:56,278
[pothead_parent]: the marine corps after they funk and
see me i wouldn't want them to i

1105
00:47:56,358 --> 00:47:56,599
[pothead_parent]: wouldn't

1106
00:47:56,611 --> 00:47:56,712
[deny_caballero]: oh

1107
00:47:56,639 --> 00:47:57,991
[pothead_parent]: join my dad funk

1108
00:47:58,088 --> 00:47:58,168
[deny_caballero]: the

1109
00:47:58,092 --> 00:47:58,173
[pothead_parent]: no

1110
00:47:58,428 --> 00:47:59,470
[deny_caballero]: spot on spot

1111
00:47:59,492 --> 00:47:59,593
[pothead_parent]: men

1112
00:47:59,550 --> 00:48:01,232
[deny_caballero]: on that's something i talk about all
the time

1113
00:48:01,211 --> 00:48:01,373
[pothead_parent]: oh

1114
00:48:01,252 --> 00:48:01,753
[deny_caballero]: and that goes

1115
00:48:02,080 --> 00:48:02,730
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1116
00:48:02,214 --> 00:48:06,403
[deny_caballero]: that not only goes to the way
they treat us after but it goes into

1117
00:48:06,443 --> 00:48:08,954
[deny_caballero]: the way of how they treat us
as we're transitioning

1118
00:48:09,763 --> 00:48:10,350
[pothead_parent]: hm

1119
00:48:09,808 --> 00:48:10,451
[deny_caballero]: we don't have

1120
00:48:14,008 --> 00:48:15,895
[deny_caballero]: actual transition program that works

1121
00:48:16,500 --> 00:48:16,881
[pothead_parent]: now sit

1122
00:48:16,888 --> 00:48:16,948
[deny_caballero]: we

1123
00:48:16,941 --> 00:48:17,001
[pothead_parent]: on

1124
00:48:16,989 --> 00:48:17,130
[deny_caballero]: don't

1125
00:48:17,081 --> 00:48:17,261
[pothead_parent]: base

1126
00:48:17,191 --> 00:48:17,414
[deny_caballero]: have

1127
00:48:17,682 --> 00:48:18,905
[pothead_parent]: weeks don't kill yourself

1128
00:48:19,325 --> 00:48:19,406
[deny_caballero]: no

1129
00:48:19,346 --> 00:48:22,733
[pothead_parent]: drink every single fucking day go broke
at the p and

1130
00:48:22,728 --> 00:48:22,851
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1131
00:48:22,753 --> 00:48:24,858
[pothead_parent]: then get up and come back to
your family that's exactly

1132
00:48:24,730 --> 00:48:24,912
[deny_caballero]: there's

1133
00:48:24,878 --> 00:48:25,278
[pothead_parent]: what it is

1134
00:48:25,758 --> 00:48:27,440
[deny_caballero]: there's no exit interview where you sit

1135
00:48:27,414 --> 00:48:27,536
[pothead_parent]: no

1136
00:48:27,480 --> 00:48:31,707
[deny_caballero]: down with your company commander group commander
and talk about hey why did you choose

1137
00:48:31,768 --> 00:48:32,409
[deny_caballero]: not to re enlist

1138
00:48:32,880 --> 00:48:33,570
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1139
00:48:33,070 --> 00:48:37,717
[deny_caballero]: well hey sir thank you for asking
that here's let's have a discussion on this

1140
00:48:38,250 --> 00:48:38,393
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1141
00:48:38,488 --> 00:48:43,061
[deny_caballero]: this is why x y s e
family stress not being able to promote not

1142
00:48:43,362 --> 00:48:47,381
[deny_caballero]: all these deployments all this stuff it
doesn't have to be the dramatic incident or

1143
00:48:47,481 --> 00:48:50,887
[deny_caballero]: issue of violence and being angry at
commander it can be a very adult thing

1144
00:48:51,187 --> 00:48:53,792
[deny_caballero]: the corporate world civilians do it they
have an exit interview

1145
00:48:54,080 --> 00:48:54,562
[pothead_parent]: the accident

1146
00:48:54,313 --> 00:48:55,575
[deny_caballero]: we don't but

1147
00:48:55,466 --> 00:48:55,707
[pothead_parent]: we don't

1148
00:48:55,595 --> 00:48:58,601
[deny_caballero]: we don't want to have because they
don't want to hear truth of why you're

1149
00:48:58,661 --> 00:48:59,924
[deny_caballero]: choosing to leave of

1150
00:48:59,905 --> 00:49:00,027
[pothead_parent]: did

1151
00:49:00,044 --> 00:49:00,224
[deny_caballero]: why

1152
00:49:00,149 --> 00:49:00,169
[pothead_parent]: i

1153
00:49:00,365 --> 00:49:04,334
[deny_caballero]: the years of pain and torment are
finally like just bearing down on you and

1154
00:49:04,655 --> 00:49:05,356
[deny_caballero]: something s got to give

1155
00:49:05,700 --> 00:49:08,283
[pothead_parent]: i got out of our unit it's
hilarious you say i just told the story

1156
00:49:08,403 --> 00:49:11,528
[pothead_parent]: the day when you when we got
out i deployed with my unit right in

1157
00:49:11,568 --> 00:49:16,031
[pothead_parent]: the beginning right a reserve unit so
the first two years of my contract prety

1158
00:49:16,051 --> 00:49:19,554
[pothead_parent]: much active duty boot camp so i
deployment boom came back for like four years

1159
00:49:19,654 --> 00:49:23,498
[pothead_parent]: reserves we did our training went all
over the place turned on one deploymentwhich i

1160
00:49:23,538 --> 00:49:24,098
[pothead_parent]: won't talk about

1161
00:49:26,518 --> 00:49:27,324
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1162
00:49:26,751 --> 00:49:30,737
[pothead_parent]: um and carried on but like of
course you know the last week and we

1163
00:49:30,778 --> 00:49:33,943
[pothead_parent]: had a solid group of guys that
deployed i'm talking like a hundred fucking dude

1164
00:49:33,983 --> 00:49:37,068
[pothead_parent]: that we're still in together were super
close we got a new first sergeant like

1165
00:49:37,088 --> 00:49:37,950
[pothead_parent]: the last week of the come

1166
00:49:37,927 --> 00:49:37,948
[deny_caballero]: m

1167
00:49:38,132 --> 00:49:38,863
[pothead_parent]: me see where this is going

1168
00:49:39,448 --> 00:49:39,669
[deny_caballero]: oh yeah

1169
00:49:40,612 --> 00:49:44,401
[pothead_parent]: an interview right everybody signs my sheets
like a whole ship i'm fucking out of

1170
00:49:44,441 --> 00:49:47,468
[pothead_parent]: this place sit down in the new
first sergeant in an office about this big

1171
00:49:48,090 --> 00:49:51,119
[pothead_parent]: i got this eagle tattoo on my
arm at the time because i was starting

1172
00:49:51,139 --> 00:49:56,473
[pothead_parent]: my sleeve he literally stands up and
he goes what with that fucking tattoo i

1173
00:49:56,554 --> 00:50:00,685
[pothead_parent]: go it's a tattoo first of what's
the problem you're signing my exit for him

1174
00:50:00,745 --> 00:50:03,189
[pothead_parent]: he literally looks at me goes i'm
going to have to fuck n j p

1175
00:50:03,890 --> 00:50:07,156
[pothead_parent]: an afghan vet sergeant on the last
day of his check out i go ruin

1176
00:50:07,216 --> 00:50:11,231
[pothead_parent]: my life fucking go for it through
ice nap he looks at me like this

1177
00:50:11,674 --> 00:50:15,615
[pothead_parent]: he goes sumperfie took my i'm like
fuck you bro i walked out that was

1178
00:50:15,635 --> 00:50:19,000
[pothead_parent]: the last image i had in the
marine court this dude threatening to n j

1179
00:50:19,241 --> 00:50:22,987
[pothead_parent]: p m when i had a perfect
fucking record no problem high scores got out

1180
00:50:23,047 --> 00:50:26,192
[pothead_parent]: as a sergeant everything was good is
my fucking tattoo i said i'm done with

1181
00:50:26,232 --> 00:50:29,338
[pothead_parent]: these monkey fun games that's why i'm
not re enlisting so everybody in that table

1182
00:50:29,378 --> 00:50:32,222
[pothead_parent]: in that office said we need you
to stay and i said fuck you i'm

1183
00:50:32,303 --> 00:50:35,949
[pothead_parent]: out i'm not playing these monkey games
and i'm fucking done dude it's crazy

1184
00:50:36,438 --> 00:50:36,499
[deny_caballero]: no

1185
00:50:37,271 --> 00:50:39,234
[pothead_parent]: and then there's a line of people
out the door and i told him what

1186
00:50:39,274 --> 00:50:41,479
[pothead_parent]: happened i said you know just ell
hem to funk off he'll be fine but

1187
00:50:42,270 --> 00:50:44,581
[pothead_parent]: it's like you're scared into that ship
like why don't

1188
00:50:44,458 --> 00:50:44,618
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1189
00:50:44,601 --> 00:50:45,707
[pothead_parent]: i wonder what

1190
00:50:45,879 --> 00:50:51,645
[deny_caballero]: it ruins right now in this digital
age the greatest recruitment tool that you have

1191
00:50:52,206 --> 00:50:52,907
[deny_caballero]: are your veterans

1192
00:50:53,490 --> 00:50:53,652
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1193
00:50:53,698 --> 00:50:55,004
[deny_caballero]: when you allow them to leave

1194
00:50:55,560 --> 00:50:55,785
[pothead_parent]: oh

1195
00:50:56,000 --> 00:50:57,642
[deny_caballero]: and such a

1196
00:50:58,200 --> 00:50:58,860
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1197
00:50:58,638 --> 00:51:06,153
[deny_caballero]: dramatic exit with such a horrible horrible
ah last imprinting image what do you think

1198
00:51:06,373 --> 00:51:08,336
[deny_caballero]: or what do you thi they're going
to give that young kid that reaches out

1199
00:51:08,396 --> 00:51:08,617
[deny_caballero]: to them

1200
00:51:09,171 --> 00:51:09,232
[pothead_parent]: i'm

1201
00:51:09,258 --> 00:51:09,578
[deny_caballero]: because

1202
00:51:09,293 --> 00:51:09,700
[pothead_parent]: not talking

1203
00:51:09,639 --> 00:51:13,725
[deny_caballero]: i'll ell you right now kids nowadays
are young young people that want to serve

1204
00:51:14,186 --> 00:51:17,513
[deny_caballero]: the first thing that there and is
reaching out to all these influences or people

1205
00:51:17,593 --> 00:51:18,896
[deny_caballero]: online that used to serve

1206
00:51:19,290 --> 00:51:19,950
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1207
00:51:19,658 --> 00:51:22,348
[deny_caballero]: hey what's the best way for me
to become a green bray oh how do

1208
00:51:22,428 --> 00:51:24,416
[deny_caballero]: i pass this how do i get
in this contract

1209
00:51:24,870 --> 00:51:25,560
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1210
00:51:25,428 --> 00:51:28,332
[deny_caballero]: and what do you think those guys
are going to say i'll tell you right

1211
00:51:28,372 --> 00:51:29,464
[deny_caballero]: now okay

1212
00:51:30,162 --> 00:51:30,223
[pothead_parent]: ah

1213
00:51:30,328 --> 00:51:33,785
[deny_caballero]: do you want have a family what
are what are your inspirations in life

1214
00:51:34,482 --> 00:51:35,130
[pothead_parent]: hm

1215
00:51:34,758 --> 00:51:39,287
[deny_caballero]: do x y and z take care
of yourself really think about this really be

1216
00:51:39,367 --> 00:51:40,770
[deny_caballero]: committed to you because

1217
00:51:40,592 --> 00:51:41,058
[pothead_parent]: life changed

1218
00:51:40,810 --> 00:51:41,150
[deny_caballero]: at the end

1219
00:51:41,139 --> 00:51:41,220
[pothead_parent]: for

1220
00:51:41,190 --> 00:51:41,391
[deny_caballero]: of the

1221
00:51:41,322 --> 00:51:41,443
[pothead_parent]: that

1222
00:51:41,451 --> 00:51:44,296
[deny_caballero]: day right now this place is a
meat grinder

1223
00:51:44,862 --> 00:51:45,390
[pothead_parent]: hm

1224
00:51:45,899 --> 00:51:49,365
[deny_caballero]: it's whether you like it or not
the way we treat our current service members

1225
00:51:49,385 --> 00:51:55,314
[deny_caballero]: and our veterans is more important than
whatever t v advertisement you're going to run

1226
00:51:55,880 --> 00:51:57,724
[pothead_parent]: a little bit like tell i can
describe

1227
00:51:57,628 --> 00:51:57,895
[deny_caballero]: oh

1228
00:51:57,784 --> 00:52:00,881
[pothead_parent]: and tell me if i'm wrong as
like used to jump right i've jumped

1229
00:52:00,771 --> 00:52:00,791
[deny_caballero]: h

1230
00:52:01,042 --> 00:52:01,945
[pothead_parent]: personally if i never jumped

1231
00:52:01,807 --> 00:52:01,828
[deny_caballero]: m

1232
00:52:01,985 --> 00:52:06,620
[pothead_parent]: in the military i was just a
grunt um it's like the planes like you

1233
00:52:06,640 --> 00:52:10,769
[pothead_parent]: know you're contractor like oh my god
i'm done you finally jump your floating like

1234
00:52:10,810 --> 00:52:13,335
[pothead_parent]: well this is gonna look great and
they go see a bit and then just

1235
00:52:13,395 --> 00:52:14,457
[pothead_parent]: cut it and you fucking just

1236
00:52:14,298 --> 00:52:15,601
[deny_caballero]: yeah got your static line

1237
00:52:15,950 --> 00:52:23,606
[pothead_parent]: nothing nothing like okay i'm here and
we'll let the fun happen like crazy but

1238
00:52:23,666 --> 00:52:25,509
[pothead_parent]: like we need transition groups like

1239
00:52:26,508 --> 00:52:26,569
[deny_caballero]: no

1240
00:52:26,542 --> 00:52:27,446
[pothead_parent]: what is his thursday right

1241
00:52:28,008 --> 00:52:28,869
[deny_caballero]: yeah every thursday

1242
00:52:28,672 --> 00:52:28,837
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1243
00:52:28,929 --> 00:52:32,533
[deny_caballero]: night from seven p m central can
time to eight p m central can time

1244
00:52:33,554 --> 00:52:34,896
[deny_caballero]: we do our peer to peer support
group

1245
00:52:35,240 --> 00:52:37,006
[pothead_parent]: and i'll put all that in the
notes

1246
00:52:36,838 --> 00:52:36,980
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1247
00:52:37,367 --> 00:52:39,534
[pothead_parent]: and then you guys are on instagram
at security

1248
00:52:39,378 --> 00:52:39,499
[deny_caballero]: yep

1249
00:52:39,575 --> 00:52:40,558
[pothead_parent]: hallpodcast right

1250
00:52:40,898 --> 00:52:41,439
[deny_caballero]: security halt

1251
00:52:43,120 --> 00:52:44,386
[pothead_parent]: i curentlcifi

1252
00:52:43,222 --> 00:52:46,026
[deny_caballero]: i'm horrible yeah i am horrible at
my own handles

1253
00:52:46,490 --> 00:52:47,784
[pothead_parent]: i do the same way

1254
00:52:47,970 --> 00:52:50,093
[deny_caballero]: t v i has not been kind
to me but

1255
00:52:50,031 --> 00:52:50,132
[pothead_parent]: all

1256
00:52:50,113 --> 00:52:50,233
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1257
00:52:50,172 --> 00:52:50,294
[pothead_parent]: right

1258
00:52:50,273 --> 00:52:51,515
[deny_caballero]: i think it's securely hot podcast

1259
00:52:52,732 --> 00:52:53,730
[pothead_parent]: sure

1260
00:52:53,119 --> 00:52:57,369
[deny_caballero]: it's you won't forget our logo it's
very it's very

1261
00:52:57,453 --> 00:52:58,121
[pothead_parent]: reeallpodcast

1262
00:52:58,110 --> 00:52:58,430
[deny_caballero]: basic

1263
00:52:58,202 --> 00:52:58,364
[pothead_parent]: are you

1264
00:52:58,831 --> 00:52:58,991
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1265
00:52:59,921 --> 00:53:05,020
[pothead_parent]: yeah follow them but i'm goin to
start to try and hop on these groups

1266
00:53:05,120 --> 00:53:07,667
[pothead_parent]: on thursday obviously with the kids in
the background but

1267
00:53:07,858 --> 00:53:08,039
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1268
00:53:07,928 --> 00:53:08,008
[pothead_parent]: now

1269
00:53:08,180 --> 00:53:08,421
[deny_caballero]: dude

1270
00:53:08,449 --> 00:53:09,813
[pothead_parent]: that is

1271
00:53:09,748 --> 00:53:09,768
[deny_caballero]: a

1272
00:53:10,394 --> 00:53:10,675
[pothead_parent]: seen

1273
00:53:10,914 --> 00:53:15,809
[deny_caballero]: dude and it's it's the beauty of
it is you're able to hear other people

1274
00:53:17,208 --> 00:53:22,258
[deny_caballero]: describe how they slayed and destroyed the
myth like the one i really want to

1275
00:53:22,298 --> 00:53:27,701
[deny_caballero]: get out there for people guys and
girls because men and women are horrible about

1276
00:53:27,741 --> 00:53:30,870
[deny_caballero]: this because if you've been you endure
trauma

1277
00:53:31,320 --> 00:53:31,340
[pothead_parent]: m

1278
00:53:31,658 --> 00:53:34,514
[deny_caballero]: and you've been a victim of horrible

1279
00:53:34,119 --> 00:53:34,140
[pothead_parent]: m

1280
00:53:35,278 --> 00:53:37,213
[deny_caballero]: circumstances you're always on high alert

1281
00:53:37,923 --> 00:53:38,490
[pothead_parent]: hm

1282
00:53:38,348 --> 00:53:42,900
[deny_caballero]: i can't i can't be around men
like this i can't be around i'm not

1283
00:53:42,920 --> 00:53:45,663
[deny_caballero]: going to be a victim again i'm
going to be on guard and for guys

1284
00:53:45,763 --> 00:53:51,272
[deny_caballero]: it's no fun that last time i
wasn't on alert fucking we got blown up

1285
00:53:52,118 --> 00:53:52,338
[deny_caballero]: i got

1286
00:53:52,313 --> 00:53:52,860
[pothead_parent]: hm

1287
00:53:52,419 --> 00:53:55,409
[deny_caballero]: shot or somethin horrible happened go that

1288
00:53:55,740 --> 00:53:55,760
[pothead_parent]: m

1289
00:53:55,931 --> 00:53:59,546
[deny_caballero]: it seems hard it seems counter intuitive
let go of that

1290
00:53:59,880 --> 00:53:59,900
[pothead_parent]: m

1291
00:54:00,528 --> 00:54:05,055
[deny_caballero]: take active steps to understand that you
are in control of your life you are

1292
00:54:05,115 --> 00:54:06,016
[deny_caballero]: in control of your body

1293
00:54:07,014 --> 00:54:07,095
[pothead_parent]: ah

1294
00:54:07,478 --> 00:54:09,405
[deny_caballero]: when i first gave up that idea

1295
00:54:10,830 --> 00:54:11,460
[pothead_parent]: yes

1296
00:54:10,948 --> 00:54:13,071
[deny_caballero]: just let go of the idea that
had to be always switched on

1297
00:54:13,601 --> 00:54:13,783
[pothead_parent]: yes

1298
00:54:13,752 --> 00:54:16,737
[deny_caballero]: i was praying i said god please
please please please

1299
00:54:17,160 --> 00:54:17,180
[pothead_parent]: m

1300
00:54:17,779 --> 00:54:20,684
[deny_caballero]: let me be that man of action
let me make sure i always have that

1301
00:54:20,744 --> 00:54:25,342
[deny_caballero]: ability to turn on because i have
one two car accidents i know

1302
00:54:25,719 --> 00:54:25,740
[pothead_parent]: m

1303
00:54:26,838 --> 00:54:29,724
[deny_caballero]: i know that feeling of being able
to be that guy you can count on

1304
00:54:29,864 --> 00:54:30,986
[deny_caballero]: i didn't want to lose that

1305
00:54:31,162 --> 00:54:31,602
[pothead_parent]: you guys are

1306
00:54:31,678 --> 00:54:31,718
[deny_caballero]: i

1307
00:54:31,783 --> 00:54:31,903
[pothead_parent]: so

1308
00:54:31,880 --> 00:54:32,102
[deny_caballero]: didn't

1309
00:54:32,043 --> 00:54:32,845
[pothead_parent]: the same person

1310
00:54:33,530 --> 00:54:37,779
[deny_caballero]: i didn't want to lose that and
i see that and i see that value

1311
00:54:37,859 --> 00:54:41,247
[deny_caballero]: to my wife my future kids i
want to be the protector

1312
00:54:41,640 --> 00:54:41,660
[pothead_parent]: m

1313
00:54:41,708 --> 00:54:44,735
[deny_caballero]: but i realized the more i got
into mindfulness the more i had to listen

1314
00:54:44,815 --> 00:54:50,324
[deny_caballero]: to that let him go being able
to let go and finally cultivated the idea

1315
00:54:50,405 --> 00:54:53,690
[deny_caballero]: of like when i'm ready i'll be
ready when it happens i'll be i'll be

1316
00:54:53,750 --> 00:54:57,176
[deny_caballero]: ready i know what i've been through
i know the person i am the caliber

1317
00:54:57,236 --> 00:55:02,040
[deny_caballero]: man i am i know when the
situation comes i'll be ready

1318
00:55:02,851 --> 00:55:02,995
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1319
00:55:02,999 --> 00:55:08,303
[deny_caballero]: months down the road we have a
podcast about it is i'm walking my dogs

1320
00:55:08,343 --> 00:55:11,648
[deny_caballero]: to my wife having a great time
and i see one of my neighbors walking

1321
00:55:12,370 --> 00:55:15,655
[deny_caballero]: older gentleman he's got below the knee
empt

1322
00:55:16,482 --> 00:55:17,010
[pothead_parent]: hm

1323
00:55:17,319 --> 00:55:18,650
[deny_caballero]: i see two

1324
00:55:18,514 --> 00:55:19,170
[pothead_parent]: right

1325
00:55:20,579 --> 00:55:25,092
[deny_caballero]: of leash pit bolls running and instantly
i realized

1326
00:55:26,023 --> 00:55:26,349
[pothead_parent]: got a problem

1327
00:55:26,438 --> 00:55:30,171
[deny_caballero]: they're going to hit ted e going
to hit him right now and i handed

1328
00:55:30,251 --> 00:55:31,934
[deny_caballero]: my wife the leash to

1329
00:55:31,959 --> 00:55:31,980
[pothead_parent]: m

1330
00:55:31,974 --> 00:55:32,976
[deny_caballero]: our dogs and

1331
00:55:33,540 --> 00:55:33,560
[pothead_parent]: m

1332
00:55:33,757 --> 00:55:38,705
[deny_caballero]: there i am bolting down towards this
gentleman that's now being moved by two dogs

1333
00:55:38,966 --> 00:55:44,952
[deny_caballero]: and get off get him up able
to assess his injuries welcome to his house

1334
00:55:45,874 --> 00:55:48,738
[deny_caballero]: and it wasn't like a disassociation were

1335
00:55:49,230 --> 00:55:49,920
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1336
00:55:49,460 --> 00:55:53,486
[deny_caballero]: instantly i'm i'm out of it no
i wasn't controlling myself and i knew the

1337
00:55:53,526 --> 00:55:56,828
[deny_caballero]: danger that was going into it i
knew what i was seeing no time that

1338
00:55:56,868 --> 00:56:00,112
[deny_caballero]: i lose control who i was and
no time that i have to come back

1339
00:56:00,192 --> 00:56:04,777
[deny_caballero]: down or go into a flash back
going to scenario of what the worst oh

1340
00:56:04,837 --> 00:56:07,145
[deny_caballero]: my god um cool collective

1341
00:56:07,211 --> 00:56:08,237
[pothead_parent]: see how that fucking works did

1342
00:56:08,518 --> 00:56:14,499
[deny_caballero]: everything i needed to do got my
man up to care him like walked into

1343
00:56:14,539 --> 00:56:20,216
[deny_caballero]: this house every single thing that you
feel that you're going to lose you're not

1344
00:56:20,697 --> 00:56:23,683
[deny_caballero]: it's going to multiply you're going to
be a better person or gonna be a

1345
00:56:23,844 --> 00:56:30,428
[deny_caballero]: better team member to your family when
it comes to protection because you're not constantly

1346
00:56:31,668 --> 00:56:31,991
[deny_caballero]: prepared

1347
00:56:32,640 --> 00:56:33,930
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1348
00:56:33,238 --> 00:56:37,326
[deny_caballero]: you're an intuitive or you're sitting there
and when ship happens when things and you

1349
00:56:37,386 --> 00:56:39,871
[deny_caballero]: need to react you will guaranfuckintee

1350
00:56:39,175 --> 00:56:39,690
[pothead_parent]: hm

1351
00:56:39,911 --> 00:56:44,079
[deny_caballero]: you you will and now it's not
a place of like i need metro have

1352
00:56:44,139 --> 00:56:48,887
[deny_caballero]: this this and that because it's funny
i love seeing instagram accounts with the guys

1353
00:56:49,268 --> 00:56:52,834
[deny_caballero]: you know number one thing to be
prepared to carry fifteen guns and this bag

1354
00:56:52,894 --> 00:56:53,795
[deny_caballero]: and it's like cool man

1355
00:56:54,280 --> 00:56:54,422
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1356
00:56:54,496 --> 00:56:56,659
[deny_caballero]: awesome here's what i'm going to do

1357
00:56:57,120 --> 00:56:57,325
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1358
00:56:57,601 --> 00:57:02,850
[deny_caballero]: i'm going to have the one pistol
i need here if something happens i'm going

1359
00:57:02,910 --> 00:57:06,756
[deny_caballero]: for it but my family doesn't need
me to be that weird dude with

1360
00:57:07,020 --> 00:57:07,101
[pothead_parent]: ye

1361
00:57:07,097 --> 00:57:09,603
[deny_caballero]: five eleven tactical pants with fifteen

1362
00:57:09,313 --> 00:57:09,655
[pothead_parent]: her with

1363
00:57:09,703 --> 00:57:10,124
[deny_caballero]: knives

1364
00:57:09,735 --> 00:57:10,782
[pothead_parent]: vingeneraul

1365
00:57:10,164 --> 00:57:10,405
[deny_caballero]: and like

1366
00:57:10,842 --> 00:57:11,003
[pothead_parent]: guy

1367
00:57:10,986 --> 00:57:11,207
[deny_caballero]: three

1368
00:57:11,084 --> 00:57:11,265
[pothead_parent]: kid

1369
00:57:11,347 --> 00:57:13,552
[deny_caballero]: pistols on me like fucking start this
she

1370
00:57:13,650 --> 00:57:13,772
[pothead_parent]: oh

1371
00:57:13,673 --> 00:57:14,615
[deny_caballero]: let's go no

1372
00:57:14,550 --> 00:57:14,930
[pothead_parent]: texas

1373
00:57:14,695 --> 00:57:14,876
[deny_caballero]: dude

1374
00:57:15,211 --> 00:57:16,653
[pothead_parent]: t that ripped with us was that

1375
00:57:16,588 --> 00:57:16,730
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1376
00:57:17,054 --> 00:57:18,777
[pothead_parent]: it's kit nina stars i looked

1377
00:57:18,708 --> 00:57:18,831
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1378
00:57:18,817 --> 00:57:21,842
[pothead_parent]: at old you're a saw gunner i
said you should probably strip everything you need

1379
00:57:21,882 --> 00:57:24,787
[pothead_parent]: now becase yo're gonna die i'm going
in a stars and then another one is

1380
00:57:24,887 --> 00:57:25,949
[pothead_parent]: bisetlike pro this isn't

1381
00:57:25,818 --> 00:57:25,941
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1382
00:57:26,852 --> 00:57:27,776
[pothead_parent]: this is afghanisour

1383
00:57:27,248 --> 00:57:27,370
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1384
00:57:27,817 --> 00:57:28,500
[pothead_parent]: enemy's here

1385
00:57:28,509 --> 00:57:28,652
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1386
00:57:28,641 --> 00:57:30,571
[pothead_parent]: or about five hundred yards from us
oh

1387
00:57:30,568 --> 00:57:30,768
[deny_caballero]: because

1388
00:57:30,611 --> 00:57:30,894
[pothead_parent]: my god

1389
00:57:30,808 --> 00:57:34,434
[deny_caballero]: let's let's face it for a vast
majority of us the real thing that you're

1390
00:57:34,474 --> 00:57:36,377
[deny_caballero]: going to react to is that car
accident

1391
00:57:37,141 --> 00:57:37,564
[pothead_parent]: it's yeah

1392
00:57:37,448 --> 00:57:37,588
[deny_caballero]: that

1393
00:57:37,625 --> 00:57:37,746
[pothead_parent]: it's

1394
00:57:37,768 --> 00:57:41,955
[deny_caballero]: older gentleman has a heart attack that
that couple that you know they have a

1395
00:57:41,995 --> 00:57:45,622
[deny_caballero]: baby in some true with the kid
like dude these are real world situations that

1396
00:57:45,882 --> 00:57:50,229
[deny_caballero]: you are of value to your community
people are going to come up to you

1397
00:57:50,350 --> 00:57:53,575
[deny_caballero]: and they're going to be more uh
they're going to see you as some o

1398
00:57:53,635 --> 00:57:54,556
[deny_caballero]: they can reach out to

1399
00:57:55,141 --> 00:57:55,920
[pothead_parent]: ah

1400
00:57:55,418 --> 00:57:59,301
[deny_caballero]: you're not that guy that's constantly given
out that vibe that energy of like funk

1401
00:57:59,502 --> 00:58:04,907
[deny_caballero]: world grub style dude be calm collected
be happy

1402
00:58:05,421 --> 00:58:05,804
[pothead_parent]: love you

1403
00:58:05,838 --> 00:58:06,319
[deny_caballero]: be ready

1404
00:58:08,070 --> 00:58:11,814
[pothead_parent]: you say that to like first responders
and ship like a dude you want tie

1405
00:58:11,895 --> 00:58:12,719
[pothead_parent]: out ptsdthese

1406
00:58:12,738 --> 00:58:12,938
[deny_caballero]: same

1407
00:58:12,800 --> 00:58:13,001
[pothead_parent]: people

1408
00:58:12,978 --> 00:58:13,639
[deny_caballero]: boat same

1409
00:58:13,564 --> 00:58:13,745
[pothead_parent]: there

1410
00:58:13,679 --> 00:58:17,345
[deny_caballero]: boat as us there are brothers and
sisters in arms just

1411
00:58:17,251 --> 00:58:17,412
[pothead_parent]: most

1412
00:58:17,426 --> 00:58:17,886
[deny_caballero]: because

1413
00:58:17,472 --> 00:58:17,935
[pothead_parent]: of your best

1414
00:58:18,507 --> 00:58:21,953
[deny_caballero]: yeah and a lot of them because
they have that passion to continue serving they

1415
00:58:22,013 --> 00:58:24,217
[deny_caballero]: have that passion to continue to help

1416
00:58:24,810 --> 00:58:24,950
[pothead_parent]: it's

1417
00:58:24,920 --> 00:58:25,122
[deny_caballero]: but

1418
00:58:24,970 --> 00:58:28,453
[pothead_parent]: like people like go home and process
and it's like like you had your ike

1419
00:58:28,473 --> 00:58:31,515
[pothead_parent]: i had a car the night before
we go to disney world with the kids

1420
00:58:31,976 --> 00:58:35,078
[pothead_parent]: of course i leave work long story
short cars flipped over and people are just

1421
00:58:35,118 --> 00:58:37,893
[pothead_parent]: driving by i'm going fucking seeing ship

1422
00:58:38,388 --> 00:58:38,509
[deny_caballero]: yep

1423
00:58:38,836 --> 00:58:42,224
[pothead_parent]: i pull over a long story get
to the end of it the guy is

1424
00:58:42,324 --> 00:58:47,114
[pothead_parent]: upside down his leg is completely amputated
his leg is pulled the skin down the

1425
00:58:47,214 --> 00:58:52,585
[pothead_parent]: bone is this way and his foot's
gone his seat belt across his throat purple

1426
00:58:52,645 --> 00:58:55,469
[pothead_parent]: is my fucking coffee mug in front
of me and i'm in there kicking his

1427
00:58:55,509 --> 00:58:58,735
[pothead_parent]: wind shield out cut the tip of
my finger off everybody just standing there i'm

1428
00:58:58,795 --> 00:58:58,895
[pothead_parent]: like

1429
00:58:59,158 --> 00:58:59,878
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1430
00:58:59,356 --> 00:59:03,094
[pothead_parent]: fucking get out of my way move
then i just went home so i went

1431
00:59:03,114 --> 00:59:06,705
[pothead_parent]: to the hospital get my finger blue
shut pulled glass on to me and i

1432
00:59:06,745 --> 00:59:07,668
[pothead_parent]: happened to playing to disney role

1433
00:59:08,128 --> 00:59:08,148
[deny_caballero]: m

1434
00:59:08,370 --> 00:59:09,091
[pothead_parent]: you think i slept

1435
00:59:09,157 --> 00:59:09,178
[deny_caballero]: m

1436
00:59:09,171 --> 00:59:09,211
[pothead_parent]: at

1437
00:59:09,268 --> 00:59:09,549
[deny_caballero]: oh

1438
00:59:09,331 --> 00:59:12,678
[pothead_parent]: all for like those first three days
due just re processing that ship my brain

1439
00:59:12,758 --> 00:59:16,002
[pothead_parent]: like it's good tough like you're gonna
you're always going to be that guy like

1440
00:59:16,062 --> 00:59:19,166
[pothead_parent]: if there's a school shooting or store
shooting if yo don't think i'm first mother

1441
00:59:19,206 --> 00:59:20,307
[pothead_parent]: sucker up there you're on drugs

1442
00:59:20,368 --> 00:59:20,670
[deny_caballero]: um

1443
00:59:20,827 --> 00:59:22,329
[pothead_parent]: but like you got to realize that

1444
00:59:22,507 --> 00:59:22,528
[deny_caballero]: m

1445
00:59:23,080 --> 00:59:25,250
[pothead_parent]: still doing that is going to fuck
you up again you get to realize

1446
00:59:25,193 --> 00:59:25,234
[deny_caballero]: it

1447
00:59:25,290 --> 00:59:25,350
[pothead_parent]: how

1448
00:59:25,335 --> 00:59:25,457
[deny_caballero]: is

1449
00:59:25,390 --> 00:59:26,435
[pothead_parent]: to pull it i gets

1450
00:59:26,548 --> 00:59:31,556
[deny_caballero]: that's why it's even more important to
process a trauma we already have because it's

1451
00:59:31,616 --> 00:59:32,137
[deny_caballero]: like a bucket

1452
00:59:32,760 --> 00:59:32,922
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1453
00:59:32,878 --> 00:59:37,746
[deny_caballero]: it's the same analogy that every doctor
always uses like your buckets over filling with

1454
00:59:37,867 --> 00:59:39,931
[deny_caballero]: everything you want though an ira afghanistan

1455
00:59:39,930 --> 00:59:39,950
[pothead_parent]: m

1456
00:59:40,292 --> 00:59:44,982
[deny_caballero]: childhood there's no room for new trauma
there's no room for you to process and

1457
00:59:45,022 --> 00:59:48,059
[deny_caballero]: everything is just going to be that
raw nerve in your head work through some

1458
00:59:48,079 --> 00:59:52,066
[deny_caballero]: of that trauma get some of that
stuff out of there to constant work you

1459
00:59:52,187 --> 00:59:55,353
[deny_caballero]: just get some of that so that
when you do react to the next thing

1460
00:59:56,014 --> 01:00:00,810
[deny_caballero]: it's like okay i am glad i'm
able to help this gentleman

1461
01:00:01,172 --> 01:00:01,192
[pothead_parent]: m

1462
01:00:01,271 --> 01:00:03,934
[deny_caballero]: nobody knows what to do nobody wants
to act i'm going to be here i'm

1463
01:00:03,954 --> 01:00:08,149
[deny_caballero]: going to do my thing let's get
him to the hospital call my wife let

1464
01:00:08,189 --> 01:00:09,731
[deny_caballero]: her know what's going on let her
know that

1465
01:00:10,050 --> 01:00:10,740
[pothead_parent]: yeah

1466
01:00:10,092 --> 01:00:12,295
[deny_caballero]: i'm coming home and i'm a little
bit of a

1467
01:00:12,360 --> 01:00:12,520
[pothead_parent]: hey

1468
01:00:12,376 --> 01:00:12,916
[deny_caballero]: raw nerve

1469
01:00:13,322 --> 01:00:16,008
[pothead_parent]: everything is okay but i'm fucking bleeding
and you got meet me at the hospital

1470
01:00:16,148 --> 01:00:18,875
[pothead_parent]: like what are you talk about obviously
evrything was fine

1471
01:00:18,722 --> 01:00:18,822
[deny_caballero]: but

1472
01:00:18,955 --> 01:00:19,295
[pothead_parent]: afterwards

1473
01:00:18,963 --> 01:00:19,523
[deny_caballero]: how important

1474
01:00:19,376 --> 01:00:19,716
[pothead_parent]: but i

1475
01:00:19,764 --> 01:00:19,864
[deny_caballero]: how

1476
01:00:19,797 --> 01:00:19,917
[pothead_parent]: feel

1477
01:00:20,004 --> 01:00:21,246
[deny_caballero]: great it is to be able to
sit down

1478
01:00:21,251 --> 01:00:21,292
[pothead_parent]: no

1479
01:00:21,286 --> 01:00:21,346
[deny_caballero]: and

1480
01:00:21,352 --> 01:00:21,413
[pothead_parent]: did

1481
01:00:21,366 --> 01:00:21,426
[deny_caballero]: be

1482
01:00:21,454 --> 01:00:21,515
[pothead_parent]: you

1483
01:00:21,466 --> 01:00:21,566
[deny_caballero]: like

1484
01:00:21,555 --> 01:00:21,738
[pothead_parent]: freeze

1485
01:00:21,606 --> 01:00:21,707
[deny_caballero]: hey

1486
01:00:21,799 --> 01:00:22,883
[pothead_parent]: on us there

1487
01:00:23,400 --> 01:00:23,763
[deny_caballero]: can you see me

1488
01:00:24,220 --> 01:00:24,521
[pothead_parent]: you're good

1489
01:00:24,528 --> 01:00:28,583
[deny_caballero]: so yeah but being able to sit
down with your wife and be able to

1490
01:00:28,624 --> 01:00:29,045
[deny_caballero]: say like hey

1491
01:00:30,191 --> 01:00:30,272
[pothead_parent]: we

1492
01:00:30,268 --> 01:00:32,500
[deny_caballero]: you probably don't have any framework reference
so i don't want to go in the

1493
01:00:32,520 --> 01:00:37,435
[deny_caballero]: gory details but i just went through
some really hard stuff a guy's alive i

1494
01:00:37,536 --> 01:00:41,406
[deny_caballero]: did i'm aped i'm happy a little
messed up but

1495
01:00:42,122 --> 01:00:42,223
[pothead_parent]: it

1496
01:00:42,198 --> 01:00:46,024
[deny_caballero]: i did something good but it's really
shocking i'm gonna we're gonna still go to

1497
01:00:46,104 --> 01:00:48,228
[deny_caballero]: disney but i'm goin t need to
chill out

1498
01:00:48,693 --> 01:00:48,959
[pothead_parent]: feeling

1499
01:00:48,708 --> 01:00:50,732
[deny_caballero]: as soon as we get there all
right cool yeah

1500
01:00:51,542 --> 01:00:51,583
[pothead_parent]: so

1501
01:00:51,713 --> 01:00:54,740
[deny_caballero]: and i love you all right it's
going to be really or for the next

1502
01:00:54,820 --> 01:00:55,965
[deny_caballero]: couple of days up

1503
01:00:56,950 --> 01:00:56,971
[pothead_parent]: i

1504
01:00:57,028 --> 01:00:57,048
[deny_caballero]: i

1505
01:00:57,053 --> 01:00:57,217
[pothead_parent]: would

1506
01:00:57,108 --> 01:00:59,751
[deny_caballero]: wasn't able to do that type of
stuff before it was just if i would

1507
01:00:59,791 --> 01:01:03,336
[deny_caballero]: reacted to something it would just be
trauma and locked in my head

1508
01:01:04,610 --> 01:01:04,792
[pothead_parent]: and then

1509
01:01:04,738 --> 01:01:04,918
[deny_caballero]: fuck

1510
01:01:04,812 --> 01:01:05,053
[pothead_parent]: you're like

1511
01:01:05,118 --> 01:01:06,140
[deny_caballero]: replareplay

1512
01:01:05,295 --> 01:01:06,886
[pothead_parent]: the help one again is yes

1513
01:01:06,720 --> 01:01:08,443
[deny_caballero]: yeah reply yeah replayiti's like

1514
01:01:08,490 --> 01:01:09,150
[pothead_parent]: oh

1515
01:01:08,523 --> 01:01:08,903
[deny_caballero]: no dude

1516
01:01:09,441 --> 01:01:09,461
[pothead_parent]: i

1517
01:01:09,885 --> 01:01:10,826
[deny_caballero]: don't replay that ship

1518
01:01:12,421 --> 01:01:17,670
[pothead_parent]: i mean i wanted to just jump
in between you two and just say that

1519
01:01:18,271 --> 01:01:20,935
[pothead_parent]: i would love to have you back
on cab because

1520
01:01:21,028 --> 01:01:21,208
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1521
01:01:21,557 --> 01:01:21,797
[pothead_parent]: you want

1522
01:01:21,831 --> 01:01:22,273
[deny_caballero]: absolutely

1523
01:01:21,857 --> 01:01:28,448
[pothead_parent]: to have your wife to something i
just really love the fact that you know

1524
01:01:28,508 --> 01:01:34,358
[pothead_parent]: you've put in the ground work and
now it's like you want to do whatever

1525
01:01:34,418 --> 01:01:39,506
[pothead_parent]: you can to help others until allow
others to feel what you're feeling and that's

1526
01:01:39,567 --> 01:01:44,675
[pothead_parent]: exactly you know what we're trying to
do and i mean i feel like we

1527
01:01:44,755 --> 01:01:50,852
[pothead_parent]: speak a lot of the same languages
so thank you so much for being on

1528
01:01:50,932 --> 01:01:52,517
[pothead_parent]: our show and i mean

1529
01:01:52,441 --> 01:01:53,009
[deny_caballero]: thank you guys

1530
01:01:53,630 --> 01:01:55,172
[pothead_parent]: i'm like looking at the time

1531
01:01:55,168 --> 01:01:55,411
[deny_caballero]: oh

1532
01:01:55,212 --> 01:01:56,474
[pothead_parent]: and i'm like i can go

1533
01:01:56,607 --> 01:01:56,668
[deny_caballero]: ah

1534
01:01:56,655 --> 01:02:01,603
[pothead_parent]: on and talk i was not going
to stop and then i'm like okay we

1535
01:02:01,663 --> 01:02:03,226
[pothead_parent]: need to take a handle on this

1536
01:02:03,990 --> 01:02:04,811
[deny_caballero]: all guys got you

1537
01:02:04,788 --> 01:02:05,009
[pothead_parent]: there's

1538
01:02:04,851 --> 01:02:06,033
[deny_caballero]: guys got a full life man we're

1539
01:02:06,000 --> 01:02:06,021
[pothead_parent]: a

1540
01:02:06,073 --> 01:02:06,814
[deny_caballero]: good we'll do it again

1541
01:02:07,510 --> 01:02:11,016
[pothead_parent]: yeah no i mean i would love
to dive in i would love to dive

1542
01:02:11,096 --> 01:02:14,902
[pothead_parent]: into i mean the fact of being
a spouse of someone who's been in the

1543
01:02:14,943 --> 01:02:15,624
[pothead_parent]: military

1544
01:02:15,118 --> 01:02:15,241
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1545
01:02:15,924 --> 01:02:20,292
[pothead_parent]: and you know just dealing you know
with ours you know yeah

1546
01:02:20,438 --> 01:02:20,580
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1547
01:02:20,452 --> 01:02:21,995
[pothead_parent]: and then just understanding

1548
01:02:21,555 --> 01:02:21,697
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1549
01:02:22,075 --> 01:02:26,683
[pothead_parent]: and and so on so you know
i hope everybody enjoys the show and i

1550
01:02:26,844 --> 01:02:31,822
[pothead_parent]: know they will because you know just
talking to you as it's it's very inspiring

1551
01:02:31,902 --> 01:02:38,216
[pothead_parent]: to me you know so thank you
so much and anything else to act as

1552
01:02:38,256 --> 01:02:39,178
[pothead_parent]: soon as we can but against

1553
01:02:39,069 --> 01:02:39,210
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1554
01:02:39,218 --> 01:02:39,298
[pothead_parent]: you

1555
01:02:39,392 --> 01:02:40,218
[deny_caballero]: please please

1556
01:02:40,540 --> 01:02:41,602
[pothead_parent]: podcast and

1557
01:02:41,628 --> 01:02:41,769
[deny_caballero]: yep

1558
01:02:41,682 --> 01:02:43,926
[pothead_parent]: i think side security hall podcast dot
com right

1559
01:02:43,978 --> 01:02:44,780
[deny_caballero]: that's right and

1560
01:02:44,747 --> 01:02:44,888
[pothead_parent]: right

1561
01:02:44,981 --> 01:02:48,834
[deny_caballero]: our tag line is we don't get
through this by ourselves we get through this

1562
01:02:48,780 --> 01:02:48,880
[pothead_parent]: you

1563
01:02:48,874 --> 01:02:49,175
[deny_caballero]: together

1564
01:02:48,920 --> 01:02:51,344
[pothead_parent]: also have the really funny taglinewhich i'll
end with here hang on

1565
01:02:51,328 --> 01:02:56,707
[deny_caballero]: uh

1566
01:02:51,384 --> 01:02:57,434
[pothead_parent]: which is this is please hol hub
and dudes on mission dudes on a

1567
01:02:57,418 --> 01:02:58,498
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1568
01:02:57,474 --> 01:02:58,796
[pothead_parent]: mission to bring you great content

1569
01:02:58,558 --> 01:02:59,428
[deny_caballero]: yeah

1570
01:02:58,836 --> 01:03:00,679
[pothead_parent]: and mental health awareness ere you go

1571
01:03:00,618 --> 01:03:01,550
[deny_caballero]: yep yep

1572
01:03:01,722 --> 01:03:04,408
[pothead_parent]: yeah we'll be in very soon and
thank you again for everything

1573
01:03:05,158 --> 01:03:06,323
[deny_caballero]: absolutely thank you guys

1574
01:03:07,075 --> 01:03:07,377
[pothead_parent]: five

1575
01:03:07,949 --> 01:03:08,072
[deny_caballero]: by